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m64n: Explanation

Jia's POV

"How are you and the baby??" I asked brightly as soon as I arrives where Chaewon is, which is her parent's house

"Everything is fine... How about you?? Uhmm.. Ji... I heard about the article about you, are you alright??" She asked worriedly but I don't want her to be affected about it as well because it may affect her and her baby too...

"I'm fine... I already know that you know me better than they do...." I said brightly

"Are you sure??" She asked

"Of course Chae... I can handle myself very well... It may not be physically but I can if it comes to emotionally..." I said and smiled to him

"Pssh... Your just bluffing..." She chuckled and it made the mood go lighter

"By the way... I heard that Jin Hyung will be home for your checkup today ..." I said

"Yupp... He will be home this evening together with the girls because they have to take care something about their businesses ... By the way, do you want something to eat??" She asked

"Of course, I would love to..." I said excitedly and made her chuckle at me

"Arasseo... Let me cook something for all of us..." She said

"Can I help??" I offered

"No... Just stay there..." She ordered and I dare not to disobey because now that Chaewon is pregnant, mabilis ng uminit ang ulo niya kaya kailangang sundin mo na lang talaga siya...

As soon as Chaewon left to cook something ay may biglang tumawag sa akin at ikinatuwa ko naman nung nakita ko yung caller ID

Because its been a week since we talked to each other and I really miss him so much... Because this week his comforting voice is all I wanted because the article about me seems not to go away any minute...

"Chaewon... Sa garden lang ako..." Pagpapaalam ko

"Hmm..."  She hummed in response

Agad naman akong pumunta sa garden saka sinagot yung video call ni Hoseok...

"Jagi~!" I excitedly called by the silence only responded to me

He just looked at me and seems to be disappointed in some way and kinda pissed as well...

"Wae? Is there a problem??" I asked curiously pero nanahimik pa rin siya at tinitigan lang ako

I don't know why but I kinda feel nervous and afraid when he looks at me the way like that right now...

"Hope... What is wrong?? Bakit ganyan ang mukha mo? Pagod ka ba?? If so, then you should take a rest then I'll call you later..." I said but he sighed heavily and finally decided to respond to me

"What is the meaning of the article about you??" He asked

It made me gulp and become silent... I don't know how to respond but I don't want him to worry about me...

"Article?? Ohh... The article... Pssh... Don't mind that..." I said to him but he seemed pissed in a way of how I respond yob his question

"Really?? Don't mind that?? But Ji...---" I cutted him off

"Look... Its been a week since we be able to talk to each other again... And that article is ruining it, I just want to have a normal conversation with you... That's why I want to know if everything's alright with your concert... So.. How was it??" I tried to change the topic because I don't want this to be the start of our another argument

But we stayed silent for a second... Para bang mas lalo siyang nainis at huminga siya ng napakalalim habang sinusubukan akong tignan sa mga mata... Then, he finally broke the silence but broke my heart as well...

"Aren't you going to explain anything??" He asked in an unamused tone

"Tsk... There's nothing for me to explain anything... Oh, how's London?? " I jokingly said to him

"Jia... I'm talking to you seriously here... Hindi ka man lang ba mag-eexplain sa akin tungkol dito??" He asked in desperate tone

I just smirked and looked down on my feet as I swing my legs while sitting at a bench...

"If I am going to explain anything, will you believe me??" I asked in an expressionless tone as I look at his eyes

Then he became silent as I wait for his response but nothing came out from his mouth that broke my heart once again and its really painful...

I chuckled before I broke the silence between us... "See? You won't even believe no matter what I say, that's why its useless for me to explain anything or even everything..."

"But Jia... I just want to know----" he said but I cutted him off

"Look... Can't we just talk about other things??... Let's talk about you..." I said in a cheerful way trying to hide the pain

"Jia... Aren't you really going to explain to me??" He asked in a disappointed tone

"You know what... You should take a rest... I also need some to... Let's just talk some other time...."I said in a calm tone

"But Jia..." He whined

"Look... I'm trying not to make things bigger here... Let's just talk when the time you are already finished in accusing me of cheating, okay??" I said as calmly as I could...

Then he chuckled about my statement and it pissed me off to the point that I don't know if I can still control my emotions...

"I guess they are right..." He said that made me taken aback

"W-what do you mean??" I said in a pissed tone

"As you said... Let's talk about this some other time..." He said and it hit the red button that made me explode

"Just like that??? Really?? I thought you know me better than those people do... I thought that you won't even believe what others tell about me... I thought that you would do everything just to keep me safe... And I thought that you will trust me..." I blurted out because I can't handle my emotions right now in this situation, its like everything that I bottled all up has reached its limit....

"You don't know how I feel hearing something like that from others..." He said

"But you don't know how I feel to undergo such circumstances... That everybody is judging me because of that fake news... That everybody is easily accusing me for a crime that I didn't do... That everybody is turning against me... That everybody is saying hurtful things about me... That everybody makes me feel weak, failure, disgusting, gold digger, famewhore, two timer and so on and so forth...." I broke down "I thought that you know me better than they do... But it turns out that its all just within my thoughts... Sorry to disappoint you in some ways that you felt that I hurt you, humiliate you and lied to you... " I bursted "I have already enough of this... Call me if you are already finished in accusing me of this thing that I didn't even though that I thought my boyfriend would know already without explaining everything..." I said and hang up on him because of my anger

I cried really hard in the garden with my palms at my face... Crying and crying and crying... I didn't know that the most hurtful thing of all is that the love of your life would believe such rumours about you.... When the only thing that you need is your boyfriend to comfort you, trust you, believe you, take care of you and be by your side through times like this but I guess not...

"Jia!" Someone called that's why I looked at who called me and its Yumi

"J-jia? Are you alright??" She asked and walked to me but I immediately stand up from my seat

"I-i'm really sorry but I have to go..." I said to her as I left Chaewon's house...

I just don't want them to see how miserable I am because of such news that damaged everything that I have...

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