I'M THEIR MUSE

CHAPTER 17~(A crimeful sweet night)

Ash's PoV

"The reason why I have connections is because, me and Ace are cooperating with the police to track our father's whereabouts. Wanted na siya mula nung grade 2 pa kami. Gusto namin siyang isuko sa pulis, at the same time ay gusto rin namin siyang makitang muli. We haven't seen him for 10 long years. Kahit naman masama siya ay tatay parin namin siya." wika ko. Sinulyapan ko ang mukha niya pero seryoso lang itong nakatingin sa lupa nang mag-angat siya ng tingin na may kunot sa noo.

"Then how can you order them na parang ikaw ang nasusunod?"

Napabuntong-hininga ako. This is it...the secret I've been hiding for almost 10years.

"Yung mga tinatawagan ko, hindi sila part ng government. I mean, they aren't part of the police. They are... daughters and sons of former agents that helps me." Kinakabahang wika ko. Para kasing walang katotohanan ang mga sinasabi ko para sakanya pero believe me, they are true.

Mas lalong kumunot ang noo niya. Mukhang naguguluhan na talaga siya. Kaya hindi ko sinasabi eh.

"So you lied?" Naga-akusang saad nito na halos napatayo nasa kinauupuan niya. Magsasalita na sana ako pero inunahan niya ako. "Wait, wait. The real question is, why do you have connections with your so-called daughters and sons of former agents when you have the police?" Takang tanong niya.

"Do you really think I can control the police?" Natatawang sagot ko. Napaamang naman siya. So cute... "Besides, I'm working with them. The agents, I mean."

Ngayon ay talagang napatayo na siya. "Why are you working with them?! Gosh Ash! You don't see my point!" Sa pagkakasabi niyang 'yon ay parang frustrated na frustrated siya. Oh,that's what she meant. My bad.

Bago ako sumagot ay hinila ko ang kamay niya para maupo ulit siya. "It's them who went to me and told me that I shouldn't trust the police and that my father was not what we think he is. Hinahanap din daw nila ang tatay ko. Well, I believed them since my father was the greatest of all starting from when I was born. Not until I saw that picture of him stabbing someone." Biglang nagbago ang ekspresyon niya at napalitan ng seryosong tingin. "Sinabi ko sakanila na bigyan nila ako ng oras para pagkatiwalaan sila at um-oo naman sila. Kaya lahat ng sinasabi ko ay ginagawa nila, kahit pa walang kinalaman sa tatay ko, para lang pagkatiwalaan ko sila." Mahabang lintaya ko. Nang hindi siya nagsalita ay hinarap ko siya saakin at pinitik ang ilong niya. Napa-'aray'naman siya. "Magsalita ka naman. Magtanong ka ng marami dahil ngayon ko lang sasagutin ang lahat ng 'yan." Pagbibiroko. Inirapan niya lang naman ako. What a tease...

"Why don't you trust them? Hindi ba sila magku-kuwento kung bakit magkaiba ang tingin nila at ng mga pulis sa tatay mo?"

"For the first question, I don't trust them because I don't know if they're telling the truth because if they're telling the truth, why didn't my father showed up between those 10 years that we waited?That's very confusing. For the second question, they would tell the whole story to me, if I full-heartedly trust them. Baka dahil daw sa muhi ko sa tatay namin ay baliwalain ko ang storya niya at ma-expose siya sa mga taong hindi dapat maka-alam." Nginitian ko siya ng pilit. I feel really bad for what I am saying. I miss our father so damn much that I don't know who to trust.

Nagulat ako ng banayad niyang pinatong ang ulo ko sa balikat niya. Damn, this feels good..

"Are you sure you want to continue?" Softly, she said. Tinanguan ko lang siya. Hinahagod pa nito ang buhok ko. Somehow, I felt relief and all the negative emotions are gone. Our position is very warm and comfortable... "Okay. So another question, kanino ninyo nalaman na hitman ang tatay niyo?"