Solos contra el mundo - Simbar (On hold- updates soon)

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Matteo

I knock on her door and hear a annoyed "Yes..." from the other side.
I open it and am face with a pale and tearful Ámbar, curled up in her bed. Her face softens when she sees me but still I know she must be exausted.

-Hey... You be tired of so many visitors but I just wanted to check on you. You had me worried, Smith.

Ámbar shows me a small grin before replying:
- I sure am... But never too tired for you, Balsano! It's just be a crazy day...

I sit at the bottom of her bed, after she signed me to.

- I only imagine... How are you? Really! - I emphasize, aware that Ámbar being Ámbar would always play it tough.

She sighs and looks at the window for a moment.

- Confused and tired. Those are basically the only things that cross my mind... Tired of Jazmin's videos, tired of people commenting other people's lives, tired of these conflicts and tired of being suspicious about everything and everyone. But mostly I am confused about how I should deal with this whole situation...

I stretch my arm to reach her hand and give it a squeeze, trying to somehow sooth her and show her support.

- It's completely normal that you feel that way after everything that you have been through these last few weeks. Actually, if I were in your position I think I would be screaming and breaking things around me. But you are the queen of disguise, so you are doing amazing.

- You have no idea how I want to break a few things... Or bones! I would be okay with that too. - She jokes, showing her devilish smile to which I reply with a chuckle.

- We will work on that. Don't worry! But what I want to tell you is that no matter how hard it is, and I can only imagine it, you have to focus on yourself and not on others. Now that it's out that you are pregnant, these kind of comments, rumors and whatsoever will keep happening, but you cannot get affect like this every time. You would always be on edge, that won't be good for either of you...

She sighed and sinked even more on her pillows.

- I have learnt to deal with other people's comments about me, Matteo. It was a hard and painful process but those are things that don't affect me anymore. But it wasn't only about me that they were talking. She attacked my baby! And I didn't have the chance to check the comments box but it must be filled with as much hate as the one Jazmin spilled... And then there was my relationship with Simón... And that's just...

Ámbar doesn't get to finish because she bursts out in tears before she has that chance.

I get up and wrap her around my arms, caressing her back to try and calm her down. She mumbles senseless words at first but after a while, her sobs are quieter, making me understand what she is saying.

- I don't know what to if it really was him... We such a hard time to get where we are, to trust each other... Would he do something like this? Would he ruin everything just because I didn't want him to tell his friends? Is he only with me to make sure I don't separate him from the baby? Does he...

Backing away, I shake her by the shoulders, making her focus on me.

- Hey, hey! You stop there! That's too much rambling. This is messing too heavily on you! Just take a few breaths... Yes, breath in, breath out.

She does as I say, repeating it a few times, before returning to a normal state.

- Better? - I question, getting a nod in return. - Now, you list to me. You have every right to hate anyone and everyone who speak poorly about your baby. And you have my word that person will automatically be on my blacklist as well, because to me that's a line you cannot cross. So I all up to revenge against those people. That's one subject we will have to deal with time. However, I won't abandon you, okay?

- Thanks, Balsano... - She replies with a husky voice.

- About Simón, I cannot promise you this 100%, but I am 99,9% sure that he wasn't the one giving away your ultrasound, let alone to Jazmin. He may be quite doubt when he wants, and completely manipulated to do what others consider the right to do, but not when it comes to you. Specially since he found out about the baby. I have seen him defend you like I never thought I would, in front of all of Roller. And I saw how he fought for you after he messed up and knew what was in charge. He might be dorky, and in my opinion don't exactly deserve you, but you both did mistakes. I think he has proven to be worthy of at least your trust...

It was obvious that Simón loved Ámbar. She was just too Ámbar to see it... It would make both of their lives much easier if they just felt instead of thinking about what the other might or might not do or feel. But having known Ámbar for quite and while, having heard and witnessed bits of her life experiences, of course I am aware of how difficult this is for her. She never trust anyone, never exposes her feelings to anyone. And when she does, all she sees getting back are negative consequences.

That's toxic to her, to her baby, to her relationship. So with whatever I can help with to make her see that she is in fact loved and that is a good thing, I will be doing that.

She sighs and sits up again.

- I hear everything you say, and I agree with all in my head, but it's my heart that just can't... I don't know, it doesn't feel it as real... - She makes a long pause, caressing her bump before resuming. - I love Simón. I have for a long time. And it's that fear of getting heart broken again that is making me push him away... I mean does he love too? Will he ever?

- I think I have the answer to that...

Ámbar and I turn shocked to the source of the voice. Ramiro is standing there holding his phone up in one hand.

- Ramiro?! - We both exclaim at the same time.

- In the flesh. I am sorry for entering without knocking but I have something you need to see, Ámbar.

Note: S-O-R-R-Y :/
It's short but I will make it up to you soon!