S.A.D || zarry au

prologue

This is for everyone who supports my writing! You guys are the best!

Harry~

        There's many different types of anxiety, at least, that's what my doctor told me. But honestly, anxiety is anxiety. It's all the same. It all keeps you isolated from the world. It all makes you live in fear. It all makes you shake as if you were in the middle of the Arctic. It all ruins you.

        I was first diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder when I was turning twelve and had just started Year 7. Mum had been worried about my intense fear of going back to school. She brought it up one night and I had a panic attack. It seemed normal at first; my breathing felt a bit off and I was only slightly trembling, but then I started crying uncontrollably and I was shaking to a point where I couldn't control it. I remember how scared I was. How my chest tightened to a point where it ached and I felt like there was something in my throat; I could barely breathe. That night, she scheduled a psychiatrist appointment and I was up there the next day.

        I'll skip the details of the appointment, but I left with a mental disorder and prescription of trazodone.

        That was the day everything changed.

       The medicine didn't really help me as it should have so I was told to carry around an injection that would calm my nerves and slowly make me fall asleep if I had a serious attack. My doctor feared my mind or my heart would end up damaged with my severe anxiety. Especially at such a young age. The injection is much like an epipen.

        My only friend, Liam Payne, had been informed of my problem and he had to carry the spare shot around with him as well.

        Smart choice considering one day he found me in the bathroom after my new English teacher made me get up in front of the class and make an explanation why I was talking. Which, obviously, I wasn't. And, I remember it so well. I had ran out of the room so fast the teacher didn't know where I was. She had called the office and they announced for me to go back to class. I were to guess that Liam took a hint and looked for me. I do know he found curled up in a ball sobbing and shaking. I felt like I was loosing myself piece by piece waiting for my whole existence to disappear.

        After he gave me the injection quickly, he took me to the nurse who had made sure that the injection was in the correct place. Liam had paid attention when they carefully showed him how to do it because she said that it was done perfect. I then dosed off as the medicine kicked in completely and woke up in my bed with a wet cloth on my forehead.

        That was the worse attack I ever had, and so my teachers had got a note, and my English got a serious talk from my mum, and I was excused from all unnecessary presentations and, really, all public speaking.

        Guess there's a perk, but it's not in play anymore because I have to give a "required speech" in my history class tomorrow morning.

        Wish me luck.

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Yes, first person. I know. But, there's the short prologue.

I know Zayn isn't in yet but he will be in the first or second chapter. Haven't decided.

So how do you guys like it? :)

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Tori xx