S.A.D || zarry au

five

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        Crying. That's what I've been doing for the past hour that I've been awake. This morning I told Mum I wasn't feeling well.

        She thought it was physically.

        But, no, it's mentally.

        The doctor told her that a side effect of anxiety disorders can be depression. "Not my little Harry," she had said confidently.

        Honestly, I was dying inside. I mean, it was nice to at least have Liam to talk to but he wasn't here, yet. He'd probably be here by lunch. That's what he always did. He was afraid I was going to try and kill myself. Can't blame him for those paranoid thoughts, though.

        I wiped my wet eyes and looked at the clock beside my bed: 10:47am. I sniffled and buried my face back into my pillow letting that empty feeling take over my chest. Then, I began to cry, once more.

        I'm not a pussy, I'm just mental.

        Or both, I guess.

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        I suppose two hours went by because I heard the front door open and the rushing sound of Liam running upstairs to my room. I didn't even have to look to know it was him slowly opening my door. "Hey, Haz," he said softly.

        I didn't reply and I felt the bed dip beside me. I turned my head to meet Liam's eyes. He was laid down beside me.

        He gave me a small smile, "Are you okay?"

        "No," my bottom lip quivered and I buried my face into Liam's chest soaking his shirt with tears. He was by far the only person I could ever break down like this in front of. He rubbed my back gently soft "sh's" coming from his lips.

        "How the fuck do you put up with me?" I ask my voice muffling into his chest.

        "It takes some skill, let me tell you that," he teases.

        I laughed lightly muttering, "Asshole."

        "This asshole brought comfort and Mc Donald's though."

        "Not hungry."

        "Too bad."

        Damn him.

~

        Liam, somehow, managed to get me to eat and we were currently surrounded by trash watching Pacific Rim. "Fuck, he's hot," I say admiring a very sexy shirtless guy on my television.

        "That's so gay," Liam laughs chucking a pillow at my head from his place on my bed. I was sitting on the floor hoping the TV would swallow me whole so that sexy piece of ass could show me a good time.

        "This may come as a shock to you but I am gay, you prick!" I chuckle throwing the pillow back at him.

        "Do you think that Zayn guy is gay?"

        My eyes widened, "Does it matter?"

        As if I had never spoke, Liam continued, "I think he is, I mean, he was shamelessly flirting with you at lunch."

        "No he wasn't," I grumble.

        "C'mon, Harry, there's a good looking guy who wants you! And all you had to do was exist! You've got the perfect opportunity for a life hack!" Liam exclaims.

        "That's not the point," I add.

        "Then what is it? Your disorder won't matter if you get to know him! You have to do that project with him, too. Try to stay calm and get comfortable with him. Make sure you know he's interested then explain everything to him. Considering how he was acting at lunch, I'd say he's sweet and understanding."

        "He could be faking it."

        "And what are the odds of that?"

        I stayed quiet, "I'm scared." My eyes started welling up with tears

        "I know, Hazzy," he sighs.

        I stand up and crawl in bed beside him, "I'll try."

        "Really?"

        "Yes, only because you seem to have some faith in me," I add.

        He laughs, "I've got all the hope in the world for you, Harry."

        "Don't hold your breath."

        "For you? Why not?"

        "Because you're going to end up disappointed."

        "No, I won't. I'll be proud you tried in the first place."

        "God, you and your words. I need a brotherly best friend not a freaking second Mum."

        "Love ya, little bro."

        "Psh, yeah, sure..you too."

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Filler! Obviously

I really wanted to write about some cute, fluffy Lirry friendship.

Okay, so I'm not going to be able to update till Saturday (I'm sorry) so I'm going to try and get another update in just to catch up from my last long absence! But, hey, when I get internet again I'll probably have a lot of stuff already typed up on my phone that I can just put on my computer then upload!

Lates!

Tori xx