It's almost like I find it and lose it. Today I think I found it. I didn't really see you the whole day, but that time we had together was made worth while. The one thing I'm afraid of is one simple thing. Are you ready to do this again? Do you even want to do this again? I understand that you said, " we will stay friends for now" but there are other times where you told me that you really miss holding my hand and that you now only want me for me. I have mixed signs. Last time I was clear because you told me straight to my face. " I love you" but other times I can be lead a different way. The year is almost done and it's pretty likely I don't see you again. I just want to make theses last days count with you but idk if you are willing to as well.
