my car reared onto the pavement
and i had to bite down
so hard
to keep my hands steady
and my eyes open
just so i wouldn't hit
that god dammed willow
we sat in
on our last picnic.
i didn't even think
about my own life
and what could have happened to me
if i had kept my foot on the accelerator
for any longer.
just him.
just the memories of the picnic.
just him and the blaring sirens and the lake.
the lake.
that's where the paramedics
told me you had been.
a flashback seeped into my skull
into my brain
into recognition.
the day we splashed around
in death's swimming pool
even though you couldn't swim.
hayden.
you're an idiot.
but please
for the love of you
don't go.
and beside the havoc
and their need to talk to me
i sat down
and hugged my knees to my chest.
a slice of paper flittered to my feet
and i pinned it down with my toes.
• this what he was trying to retrieve. •
they said;
but i barely even heard them
as i stared unblinking at the paper.
the photograph was blurred and smudged
from the water and my tears;
but i could see her eyes
traveling off in the distance.
and at first i thought the photograph
was a picture of a random girl
or tiffany
or hayden's mum
but then i saw her hair;
her fly-aways and her imperfections
and i realised something.
they belonged to
m e.
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shaded wings
Poetryher wings would bloom when the pencil drew shades of black and white and tare into two when her body flew into the camouflage of night her heart was sewn to anyone but her own forgetting to love herself but there's a boy that knows his love for he...