ecstasy. || jeffmads (DISCONTINUED)

|chapter 8|

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The rest of my day had gone neutral so far. It was just after 7pm, and as usual, I had locked myself in my room. I was surprised I hadn't spent the entire day in bed. I was at my desk doing random sketches of people who existed only in my own head. My favourite was Jayden. He was a tall, brown, afro boy who, most of the time, wore a smirk. After drawing his face a couple of times, I noticed he always had a mischievous expression on. I'd also written about him once or twice before. He was a quirky, cheerful character who always saw the good in people. I found it ironic that I – of all people – would create such a character. He was quite the opposite of me.

At some point, my phone buzzed. Luckily I had it right next to me this time. I figured I'd probably received a message from Dolley. I had, although something was off about the way she was typing.

Dolley: Hey James

Dolley: How are you?

Dolley: I just, uh, I just thought I'd say hi. Because- shit. Can I talk to you real quick?

Dolley: I'm sorry if you're kinda busy right now... but, uh, I don't know. I was just thinking, and, well, you seem pretty, well, I don't know. Do you know Martha? Martha Wayles. She's in our stream...

Indeed I did. She was another one of the popular kids. Spoke to people like Angelica Schuyler, oldest of the famous Schuyler sisters whom everyone knew and idolized.

J. Mads: Yeah, think I do.

Dolley: Okay great. Well, um, this afternoon I was about to leave school and since Thomas usually walks with me after chess on Friday, I was waiting for him after he'd kinda just disappeared after someone called him. He wouldn't show up, so I went to look for him. I was walking towards the bathrooms incase he'd gone there and ran into some friends or something. And literally, as I turned round the corner, I saw him. He didn't see me, though. But he also, uh, he also wasn't alone. He was with her... Martha and they were... he was kissing her... I, uh, it was kinda surprising because of, like, so many reasons... I wasn't expecting it at all and I got this really weird feeling in my chest. I was gonna call him but I decided against it because, well, yeah. I just turned and left. I felt like I was gonna cry but I didn't know why. It was just... it was just really weird and like... I didn't know what to think. I've been thinking about it ever since and, like, I can't stop. I'm like... upset?? I don't know. I tried to talk to Theo or Aaron but neither are online that's why I texted you I'm so sorry if you feel uncomfortable or something... I just... yeah. I don't know. Do you have any clue what that might mean...?

Hah. That was an easy one. Jealousy.

J. Mads: Do you have anything against Martha?

I had the answer to her question, it was obviously jealousy, but I needed to hear it from her.

Dolley: Well, no, I don't think so. I like her, she's a great gal n all. I know her and Thomas are kinda friends... I just wasn't expecting it. Like REALLY wasn't...

J. Mads: Have you ever felt that way before?

Dolley: Never. Not once.

J. Mads: Do they hang out alone together a lot?

Dolley: No! They're usually there with us when they hang out. Thomas doesn't even like her that way!