Someday (Drarry Fanfic)

Chapter 6 (Rejection)

Draco's POV

"Wait I have something to tell you..." His grey eyes met the latter's green ones as he started to stutter. "I uh I-im sorry fo-for being such a pr-prat to you and your friends I-im just upset about you reje-rejecting my friendship in first y-year I didn't really mean al-all those stuff I'm so-sorry." The raven haired was surprised hearing the blonde's words and started to think that maybe this is another person that he's talking to, it couldn't be Malfoy right?! Even the way he apologize to him sounds so sincere that it made him, vulnerable and Harry was seeing Malfoy's other side for the first time so he didn't know what to say. "I guess I was just being petty that time and vented my anger towards you, but after all those years of being your enemy I realized that I was doing all of that to get your atte-attention. I did all of that because... I like you" Draco confessed his head hung low as his whole body started to shake, even the way he spoke the last part sounds do desperate that he just want to vanish and cry himself to sleep. But its too late to back out now, he has to face this and move on, he can't be a coward forever hiding his feelings for Harry. So with all the courage that was left of him he boldly stared at Harry's eyes seeking for answers while trying not to look so desperate. He needed to know the boy's answer, he needed to know so he can stop hoping that maybe the boy has feelings for him too, that maybe he can get his happily ever after.

"You like me?" He pointed at himself trying to find the words that wouldn't hurt the blonde's feelings. Even if he hates Draco he still has feelings and Harry doesn't want to hurt him especially when Draco looks so fragile when he said those words.
"I understand that its hard for you to come out but, I'm straight and besides even if we can be together many people will judge us. I don't want to hurt you but I'm sorry, I can't return your feelings." He hesitantly said as if one wrong word will shatter Draco's heart but little did he know that Draco's heart already broke into pieces as he said those words. Harry panicked as Draco's eyes watered and a tear slip off his face, the blonde hurriedly wiped the tear. He tried to speak but his voice was strained.

Fucking hell it hurts, Merlin it hurts so much, the git even have time to be so fucking gentle rejecting him. He expected Harry to lash out on him and be disgusted because of his sexual orientation. This reaction however is the opposite, he wanted to scream and even beg Harry to date him. I know it sounds pathetic but fuck the Malfoy rules, he only wants the Golden Boy. Harry is like a drug to him because when you tried it you'll never stop craving it.

"Draco, are you alright?" The latter's voice snapped Draco back from his reverie. Did he just heard Harry said his name!! His fucking name for the first time?! He was even surprised when the raven haired pulled his arm and wrapped his arms around him. For all the years of waiting finally he was able to hug Harry, he was finally able to feel his warmth. Mint, Fresh Parchment and Vanilla he smells like a dream, I hope this was a dream. Draco thought as he shamelessly inhale Harry's scent, this maybe is the last time he can touch Harry like this. It felt like time stopped when Harry embraced him, he didn't want this moment to last he just wanted to be held like this forever. But he knew that his fantasies can't be true this isn't a novel after all this is real life, they can't be together Harry said so himself. Even if its hard Draco pushed the raven haired as another tear escaped his eye. "Stop, stop getting my hopes up Harry!! You knew goddamn well that I like you and you don't feel the same. So please... Please don't get my hopes up anymore, it hurts it fucking hurts knowing that you'll be rejected but tried to confess hoping that you'll return my feelings." He laughed, " What am I even saying, you'll never understand. Because all of you expected me to act like a git every single day just because I'm a Malfoy. I'm sick pretending Harry I'm sick lying to myself, I hate myself for being a fucking coward that I can't decide for my own life!! You'll never understand..." More tears escaped his face as he walked back to the Slytherin dungeon leaving a dumbfounded Harry in the middle of the halls. He really tried not to cry but his facade broke again and he couldn't help lashing out. He blamed himself for being a coward and stupid bursting out on Harry, now the whole school would know his secret. That Draco Malfoy was a fucking pussy all along, he can imagine the evil smirk of Harry and everyone eyeing him like he's some short of trash.

Its all over, the years he spent building his walls only to be destroyed by Harry. After he quietly traveled to his dorm and casting some silencing charms on his bed his mask immediately broke. The soft pillow was now soaked with his tears as he trembled gasping for air like he was drowning. After a night of muffled sobs Draco found himself slowly falling asleep hoping that he didn't have to wake up the next morning.

I really relate to Draco at this chapter because I've been rejected once and it fucking hurt, but oh well I just cried myself and ate lots of junkfood the next day. Well it worked I'd rather marry my bed now :).