Blessed With A Curse (Destiel)

Is This What You Call A Family?

Cas's POV

I slid down the bathroom wall, ribs throbbing and head pounding. My father was on a drunken rampage again. I don't understand why he takes it out on me and not the others. Why me? Why not them or all of us? Although, I wouldn't wish this upon them. This is terrible. I know I probably deserve it though.

My thoughts were broken by a fit of coughing. When I was able to function correctly again, I sighed and cleaned myself up.

I went back to my room and turned on my music. I was lying on my bed, trying to get lost in the music, but I just felt so numb. It was like I heard the music but it just 'went in one ear and out the other'. My sight wasn't focused on anything. All of my surroundings were a blur.

Even when I had to focus on something, everything was still a bit blurry. This something was Gabe.

"Hey, Cas?" he said. "Can I jam with you?" He asked like it was a crime.

"No you cannot jam with me because I am not jamming. You can listen to music with me and feel it, though." He looked a bit confused but was okay because he still got to listen to music.

He took the spot next to me on the bed. We were lying the wrong way, the short/wide way, our legs dangling off the edge.

Hold On Til May came on and I felt so empty. I felt burned out and down. I needed to see Dean soon. I miss him a lot.

When Caraphernelia came on I heard a sniffling noise and turned to see Gabe crying. "Gabe...? What's wrong?" Gabe never cries. Gave never shows any sad emotions, so there's obviously something wrong.

"I love him." he whispered. "At first it was the heat of the moment. I had always liked him in that way but now I think it's more than that. I love him."

"Sam?" I asked

"Yeah...." he sighed, "Wait how'd you know?" He looked confused. It was actually quite obvious that he liked Sam. They're always hanging out together and Gabe doesn't talk about anyone else. Except for the Doctor, but come on, it's the fucking Doctor.

"Come on, Gabe, you never talk about anyone else. He's the only person you hang out with besides Charlie, who is a lesbian. Besides, when you came home after the last time you hung out with Sam, you looked flustered." I said casually.

His eyes widened, "Well, shit. I didn't know I was that obvious."

"It's okay Gabe. But tell me... What was the heat of the moment thing you were talking about? Was it a kiss or something more?" I asked, wiggling my eyebrows suggestively.

"Ew, Cas. Come on." he whined. "It was just a kiss."

"Okay....." I trailed off.

"Whatever, Cas... Do you wanna come watch a movie with me............? Or Doctor Who......?" He asked.

"Sure... But we're not watching Doctor Who until we finish a Harry Potter marathon." I said.

"I'm fine with that." he said and he raced off to get the movies.

I turned off the music and turned on my tv. He came back and we put in the first movie. Both of us could quote the entire movie, but we refrained from doing so.

After eight movies and five Doctor Who's I was really tired. We stayed up roughly twenty two hours. Gabe finally left and went to bed.

I laid down I drank the poison and I passed the fuck out. By poison, I mean coffee.