Love

Depression

By the way, this contains sensitive parts that I felt. So, if you are sensitive, please don't read or don't try the things that I indicated here.
Thank you for understanding.
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I am so sad
Cold and doesn't feel anything
Inside of me feels nothing
I cannot do anything

I see red everwhere
Blood dripping from my veins
Broken glasses everwhere
Torn dresses everwhere

Eyes as cold and sharp as ice
Knives so sharp
Cuts all over my body
It becomes my hobby

The pleasure it gives me
The more I want it
The freshly new cut
I want to make more

My heart is broken
My mind is not working
I cannot control my body
Someone is controlling me

I cry all day
I shout all night
I am going crazy
I don't know what is happening

I cannot feel any joy
I only feel sadness and anger
All I want is pain
Pain that made my heart broken

I'm the reason of all
I'm the stress of my parents
Subject of anger of my friends
And the reason why you left me

You left me
Without saying anything
I was just a dare
A dare that you can play with

I felt hopeless
I just wanted to die
Will eveyone be happy?
Will everyone be satisfied?

Depression is controlling me
I am out of control
It all started because of you
Playing with my feelings

This broken heart of mine
Is hard to repair
Those lovely words
Is hard to forget

Our memories
Will last long
But, looking back to our past
It is a hurtful past for me

We stayed for many years
Until you find someone
Which I am hurt
Because she is my ex bestfriend

Our past is our past
Our future is our future
But, I felt
That my future is my present