The Devil

Chapter 19 // Catherine Grant

When Lena left Kara stands up, it's time for some advice. She texts her demon driver, Frank. Something Lena didn't know but her driver was a personal demon bodyguard. But Frank says he will be there within minutes. So she grabs her coat downstairs and waits outside for the car. 

When Frank arrives she quickly gets inside the car. All she says is "To Catco." because there is the person she talks to if she needs advice. They arrive shortly later and Frank being the polite being he is opens the door for her. She gets outside and makes her way inside to the security desk.

The male security guard looks at her and she says "Linda Lee" He nods and escorts her to the private elevator. Together with the security guard she goes to the highest floor, where Cat Grant is already at work. Kara walks to Cat's office and clears her throat when Cat doesn't look up from her paperwork, it's like she is in a whole other world. 

"Kara!" exclaims Catherine when she looks up from her work. Kara just stands there and smiles. She closes the doors behind her and walks towards the couch and sits down. Kara is the only one who is allowed to do things like this around Cat, have the control. Even Carter, her son, isn't allowed to do this. 

Cat quickly comes over and sits next to Kara who is hunched forward holding her hands. Cat places a hand on Kara's shoulder who for a fact doesn't jerk away even though she isn't used to physical contact. She just asks the question that she came here for because she knows that Cat likes being direct "I- How do- Why is life so difficult?"

Cat sighs and simply explains "Sometimes life is harder because other people make it look so easy. But it isn't easy, it's far from easy. You- My Kara, are a good person. You might have problems with adjusting but you are better than all humans. Not because you are a God. No- Because you, Kara, are not a human and still care so much about them. You could have been a being like Kal-El. You could have given in a long time ago. But you are so much better. You are an Angel compared to him. So much better, now and always. "

Kara slowly nods and looks up at Cat "I- I tricked Lena into marrying me. And now- now I have real feelings. Not those predicted in the prophecies. No, no I might even love her quite soon. She- She is just. How do you say it? One of a kind? Perfect. No- No, those words are still way too small for her- but you probably get it. I am smitten. And- It's scary."

Cat squeezes Kara's shoulder and says "Every relationship is scary, especially when it's your first. But Kara, is Lena worth it?" Kara nods "Than it is settled, Lena is worth it which means that you are going to love Lena. Because even though you are scared you can see that Lena is worth so much more. And it might be bad that you tricked her into marrying you but Kara. Lena was pretty lonely, if you would have made a report how long would she still live without your protection?"

Kara sighs and slowly she starts to break down. Suddenly Cat's arm is around her pulling her closer. And without much resistance Cat succeeds in doing so, making sure Kara is close. And Kara just cries, not caring about having everybody connected to her feel the same thing. And that are a lot of people. But it doesn't matter. Now all she can think about is that Lena would be dead without her help. She would have died exactly eighty-five times for numerous reasons. Luckily for Kara she has an extra sense for it. She knows when Lena needs help, and she will always be there if needed.

But Lena doesn't need help anymore, she is a God... a legend for many. But a doomed being for herself, having human friendships aren't possible anymore. Her whole reason of being is gone. And why? Because Kara did it. Because Kara was selfish enough to take it all away. And now- now she fucked up. She did everything wrong. And- it hurts. It hurts so bad. She- She hates it. It's- just- no... life right now isn't sunshine and rainbows. 

Kara quickly stands up and Cat lets go. She mutters "I- I need to go. I am sorry." Cat just nods and with that Kara is gone. Quickly walking to the private elevator and goes downstairs again. She enters the car that still waits for her on the curb. And with that she is going back to the mansion. Still distraught. She just cries and Frank doesn't say a word. All that she can think about is that she ruined Lena's life. She completely messed it up. She broken every single rule of the rule book.

She ruined everything for everybody. Maybe Winn even didn't want this- this life. This awful life. Maybe even Alex doesn't want it, maybe she just acts like it. Maybe they all just act like they are okay with it. Maybe even Frank doesn't like his job. Maybe even Eliza doesn't like that she is together with Alex once again.

Kara just keeps on crying along the way, she just can't stop it. Everything she touches she breaks. Every. Single. Damn. Thing. They finally arrive at the mansion and Kara all but runs out of the car. She quickly runs to their room where Lena is. She isn't out of breath but she would have been if it was possible. 

With pleading eyes, for the truth, she vomits out "Did I ruin it all? Did I ruin your life? Have I been selfish? Should I have left you die? Shou- should I not have done all of it? Is it all my fault?"