Standing By (Avi Kaplan fan fic)

Four

A shiver ran down the length of my spine as Avi's soft fingertips lined my face and it's structure. He placed a finger over every scratch bruise, scar, and bump he found lining my exposed skin. I closed my eyes and let my small span of life dwell on the fact that I was actually being touché by another human being in a positive way. Avi let out a sad breath and I opened my eyes. His hands surrounded his cheeks in a cup. Holding his head and thinking. He raised his hands up and I instinctively flinched. Bringing my arms to guard my face. But what really hit me was just. He hugged me. Pulling me over the seat and into his lap. He wrapped his body around my own frail body and hugged. Nuzzling my neck and sighing. My breath hitched as I sat here curled in his lap as he held the embrace. I hesitated. But I also loosely wrapped my arms around him as I felt my emotions stir. My eyes glazed and blurred as I began to sob in his arms. Avi only pulled my tighter. Spreading his fingers out on my shoulder and back, breathing in my sent as if he didn't want to forget it. "If we hold each other close." He began. Holding my head as I sobbed. "I'll be standing by." A cry of anguish and pain escaped my lips as tears wetted his shirt. I gripped the fabric of his leather jacket like a child as I cried out. All my anger, fear, anguish, pain, and sadness pouring out of it. All the tears of abuse escaping finally. All the memories of his beating and drinking finally leaving my body for the first time in forever. "I counted the stars tonight." Avi told me. I simply whipped my eyes and peered out the window. "Look how they shine so bright. I gathered them all so that they'd perfectly aline." He began. "While we gaze from so far away." It took me a moment to realize that Avi was singing a song. He pulled me to look at him and I did. I didn't flinch. I didn't look away. I simply looked at him. "Everyone has there own stars. And when happy they shine. But when sad they grow dim. And sometimes fall. But, just but. It made happy again. They will shine so bright they might dance." Avi stopped for smoker and looked around me. "There already starting to shine."