A Stoic Heart (Completed)

Chapter 37:

Euro Zalmacio

The woman who left me years ago is now here. Inside the confined space of my bedroom.

The place where we both started. She's here, I know I should be fucking ecstatic and say those things I have been practicing in my head when she comes running back to me.

She suggest we left the condominium to have the silence that we need, and here we are in my old bedroom where her frame is still nailed.

"You never took my frame off" she said, Ashley's voice had always been warm and sweet

"I never did, I never could and I never returned here since you left" I said back.

We were seating, facing each other.

She's on the end of my bed while I was in the couch looking at her, trying to remember the face that I longed to see again for years...but why is the flames not there anymore?

"You never stopped loving me did you?" Ashley smiled at me, I just stared at my shoes to avoid her question.

"I have always wanted for this shit of a moment to happen, that the two of us be back in this room and just shut the world around us" I told her, remembering when I proposed to her inside this very room

She said yes before but she was lying that time, she loved someone else. And now she's back and guess I've won over that man, in the end she chose me but have I really won? Is this what victory should feel?

"And now were here" she said scooting closer to me, she kneeled in front of me.

"Back to each other's arms again" she added

"I was devastated, so ruined, I fucked up and stumbled continuosly when you left me Ashley...and I bet all those years when I'm hurting you were so happy with him" I said still not looking at her.

I heard her silent gulp

"But I'm here now honey, I swear I'll make up all my mistakes to you, give me a chance" Ashley said and tilts my chin to look at her and suddenly I felt her lips on mine

"Honey let me kiss you, let me remind you how much you loved me and I loved you" she said and fought her way to my mouth.

She tasted different or was it because I'm searching for something that's not her.

And then there it was.

It was at that moment that I was slapped, so hard from the heavy truth...the fucking truth. I gently pushed Ashley away.

"What?" she asked

Ashley fought to kiss me again and when she did I let her- just to prove myself something.

I get it now. I felt nothing for her anymore. I don't love her the same way anymore.

I pulled away from her kiss and hugged her.

"I have been dying for this moment to happen Ashley, believe me of how many times I prayed for this. But now that you're here...I don't seem to feel the same passion anymore. I don't feel the same way towards you anymore, I have changed and so do you. Maybe we are brought to this moment to have the closure that we wanted...I don't love you anymore Ashley. I'm sorry but it's true. Fuck I was finally able to admit this to myself. But still thank you for everything, if not for you I wouldn't have been what I am today, I wouldn't have met the woman I want to spend my life with..." I said and when I made her look at me she was crying, we both are crying and smiling.

"I'm happy Honey honestly, I want you to be happy...if it's not me then...then I'll let you, I won't keep you again. I thought you were lost but now I realized you're found, Liana found you" Ashley wiped the tears flowing in her eyes

"Go back to her...she needs you I can see that. I shouldn't have taken you from her"

"I will, she's my safe haven and I will always find myself in her comfort. I'm sorry for all my mistakes Ash, hope someday when all this shit is cleared we can be genuinely friends, right now I can still sense the pain we caused each other. One day when it's all healed, that's the time we can be buds again" I told her and gave her one last hug, I know for sure that tomorrow she'll be gone again, that's just how Ashley is.

"Good bye Euro" Ashley said
"Good bye Ash, see you around" I told her and waved.

Fuck fuck fuck Liana is so confused now, She needs me, I need her. I'm going crazy being apart from her.

That face when she looked at me and Ashley, it will always haunt me, she's in too much pain and I am but a fucker looming over my own sadness that I forgot about her, about the woman that took me out from my melancholy. My Liana was hurt and fuck I am but a bastard for leaving her.

I shouldn't have, I should have stayed and fix the closure I wanted to hear from Ashley while Liana was holding my hands.

I will make it all up to her. I will held her like I never held her before because now I know for sure that she's the one that I loved...there I admit it inside this fucking fucked-up brains of mine.

Would she listen to me? of course she will, Lia always sees the good in people no matter how harsh the world is to her. Even when she's in pain, she chose to say the right words, she never blamed me or Ashley, she was just...perfect. That's what she is, my perfect woman.

I parked my car in a rush and managed to calm myself on the long elevator ride.

I didn't get the chance to knock on the door when Tesla opened it, her eyes red and puffy.

"What happened now? don't tell me someones inside again?" I tried to calm her

"No...no sir, no ones inside anymore" she said

"What?" I paled at her statement

"What do you mean?" I repeat the question, although I am now piecing the answer in my head

"She left sir, she took her things with her but she left the envelope and she wanted me to tell you thank you, that you are so kind and she loves you...but she refused the contents of the envelope" Tesla looked down on her fingers

I slowly walked inside my now empty home...the house I only considered home because of Liana.

My knees buckled and I felt the crushing of the world behind my back, it was all the pain I felt combined and shoved into my face, saying I deserved this shit.

Well I do for I have taken the woman I learned to love for granted.

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