A Stoic Heart (Completed)

Chapter 35:

Liana Fair

"What the fuck are you doing here?" Euro's tone breaks

"You trespassed my property, you're not supposed to be here...you think you still have the right to brazenly present your face here?"

Euro's tone is harsh but it's breaking...he still loves her. He's still hurt and scarred and the way he looks at her now says everything, he need her, he needed Ashley above all to re-create the broken pieces she left.

"I...I'm sorry honey" Ashley said and gradually walk towards Euro.

Euro did not even take a step back, he welcomed her like life, the life that has been taken from him.

I am breaking, literally breaking into pieces as I looked at both of them and how perfect they looked together.

"I'm not leaving you again honey, please...I will make up everything to you  Let me love you again, the way I should have loved you before. Marry me now for real, I'm ready now, now that I realized it's you that I've been missing for so long, you're the hole in my heart and I know I'm the void inside that heart of yours too" Ashley touched Euro's hair and gathered it neatly and he let's her.

"But you were gone...you left" and there Euro completely breaks, his voice is needing, pleading. I want to save him, I want to hug him from the hurt that Ashley caused but I am breaking myself too.

"I'm here now honey...I love you" Ashley said

He looked at her, that look. A look that Euro never gave me...shit, fucking shit I am so wound up right now. I should not be watching them but my feet seems glued to the floor.

Ashley hugged him and what breaks my heart is when he hugged her back. I saw how tight he hugged her, like it was the life he lost and had returned and now he's not losing it anymore.

"I missed you...so much" Ashley whispered to him. And I did not notice my eyes were already soaked in tears, watching the beautiful movie in front of me. I am hurt yes, but I'm happy for Euro. This is what he's been praying even though he might not say it out loud.

I know every night he's waiting for her to come back.

I know that with every I love you's that I tell him it's her that he's thinking. All the compliments was for her, the time he spent with me is just a distraction from her.

It's hard, very hard to compete with someone's first love right? God it hurts, I know I should be feeling I was used but if using me will lead to this beautiful ending of Ashley and Euro's love story, then it's fine. Yes, It's fine. I should feel fine.

Ashley walked towards me and she kneels down

"I'm sorry that he used you, I'm sorry that he became like this. I am very sorry" She told me and her beautiful face was etched with sincerity

"Please, stand up. I understand, you don't have to worry about me." I tried my best to smile at her but our tear stained eyes are betraying us, we are all hurt here not only me. Euro and Ashley too, we are all part of a grand scheme called life.

She takes my hand, I looked back at Euro, he was immobile standing there, looking at his feet both his hands were tucked on his pocket. If only I could see his face, If only I could read his eyes again and tell him I'm okay and I'll be fine.

Ashley held both my hands "Tesla told me how nice you are and with that I am very thankful" she beamed at me. How can I feel hatred at this moment? How? I only felt genuine happiness for them and hurt for myself.

"I wish all happiness for the both of you" I smiled at her and wiped the tears off from my face

I nod at her and went upstairs, leaving the two of them talking. I heard Euro began to cry and I know it was what he needed. He need to vent himself to Ashley, the same girl who took Euro's heart with her and the same girl who could mend it back.

The moment I closed my door I slumped to my feet and cried. I feel defeated. I feel lost, I don't know where to start now.

But every time my eyes close it was Euro's face that I see. I have grown of loving him, he was lovable if only he can see that.

I promised myself that I am ready for this, for I know this time will come...but I didn't get prepared that it would knock me off today after my blissful moment with Euro. The passion we shared in that island and the openness we showed each other.

I healed Euro in a way and I know he mend me too in some way, we may have start badly but I don't regret that he took me from the world and kept me here. He made me sane and believe in things, hope in things, he made me feel alive and fearless.

God I so much love him but he's not for me, he already belongs to someone before you gave him to me.

I packed my things slowly, my eyes never stopped dripping warm tears, how can I move on from this, where will I go from here? I couldn't possibly stay here and look at both of them mending their wounds from the past.

When I heard no more sounds downstairs I gradually descend the stairs.

Tesla's face was the first to find me. She's worried and rushed to hug me. I dropped my bag and hugged her back, sobbing on her shoulders.

When I regained my composure I pulled away from her and looked her in the eyes

"Thank you for everything, you became the mother I never felt" I honeslty told her

"You take care Liana...and don't forget about me, please visit my funeral in the future okay?" she said and I widened my eyes at her

"No, no Tesla you'll live for 150 okay? don't say that...and I'll never forget about you please know that. Honestly I will never forget everything, this house that became my home...and all the good memories is what I'll bring with me" I warmly smiled at her.

I looked around and as if she had read my thoughts she answered

"They left, they went to Euro's mansion" she said

and I can't help the ever familiar sting in my chest. I know I should be happy for him but I can't help but be sad at the way our last encounter ends, I could have hugged him and thank him for everything...and told him one last time what a good man he is, if only he'll allow himself to see that too.

"and Liana here" Tesla handed me an envelope

"What is this?" I softly asked her

"Euro wanted me to give this to you, he gave me this during your 2nd week of stay here. And ordered to have this given to you once you leave"

"He what?" I fumble over the envelope and my knees almost buckle when I saw that very same contract I have signed before but this time there's a key and a property entitled to my name.

He gave me this despite circumstance that I won't be able to help him with his Hellenistic philosophy. He decided even before, and even when I fell in love with him he never took it back. My growing need for him became heavier, at this moment I so much wanted to hug him and whisper so many thank you's.

But he's not here anymore. And I know for sure he's at his happy place, where the love of his life is.

I love him but this is too much. So I handed the envelope back to Tesla.

"Tell him....tell him thank you and he's such a kind man and that I love him but this time I have to refuse." I smiled at Tesla, though she's worried about my decision.

"Hey, stop scowling. Everything will be fine" I assured her as I walk towards the door

"So this is it, good bye" I whispered into space. My chest burns and I fought the urge to cry again.

I love you Euro, so fucking much but you're not for me, nor am I for you.

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