"Because I want you to be mine, atleast for a month or two, and because you are so weak that I want to break you even more. I have good taste for weak woman like you, one who needs ordering around, one who needs disciplining and some whipping" he sa...
I am standing at his office inside the university. Him wearing his lab coat while me at my usual knee length dull dress.
"I just did, I joined the contest so I'll be home late" I beamed at him, he can't do anything anyway
"But we have previous plans remember?" He said and runs a hand over his hair. A plan to take me somewhere, a place I don't know where.
"You said it will be tomorrow"
"No I want to move it tonight" He said, his eyes finding mine
"But this have to come first, I realized opportunities like this don't come often" I honestly stated at him. Professional judges will be there, and I'm glad Addi forced me into it because if not I'll probably be sulking at the corner thinking to myself why I didn't join at all.
Euro seems to have a mental battle with his demon.
"Fine have it your way, David will pick you up at 7, no delays" He said and waved me off.
"Thank you very much sir" I said and stood up
"Don't fucking call me that if you don't want to be bent on this desk" He muttered through his gritted teeth
My eyes widened at his words, how could he? we are in the university's premises and what if someone heard him from outside his office.
"Fuck come here, we have five minutes to jack off" he hissed
Euro stood up and was about to strode towards me but I was quick to grab the door and shut it to his face.
My heart beats wildly again
Students were looking at me like I was out from a war, I fixed my composure
I heard Euro call my name
But I'm already running away.
He's sick, very sick. I know we did that before in his office I just don't think he would offer to do that again now, at this hot afternoon.
***
"You're early" Fabio beamed at me when I entered the designated room where the contest will be held
He is wearing navy pants and coat, so much like Euro.
"I'm nervous and I want to get accustomed to the room" I told him and went to find a perfect spot where I'll be working.
There. Near the window, talking about perfect spot.
"You look pretty" He said and avert his eyes from me, he worked with the papers in his hand probably the criteria for judging the amateur painters.
I was caught off guard but nothing can compare when Euro say that to me during our intimate times.
"Thanks, you too are pretty yourself" I replied and I swear I saw the man blush.
I organized my things. Euro bought me more than necessaries, these piece of painting materials are extravagant in their own.
Soon the room was filled with students and I became more and more anxious.
Heck Addison, this is your fault. I tried blaming her in ny head but felt guilty afterwards. She wanted the best for me.
Judges are now here, goodness there were four of them. One face is very famous,I've seen him on posters downtown.
Fabio gave off a quick speech before telling us to start and that we have only three hours.
Fabio gave a cheeky grin and smirked at me. This man sure knows how to make a nervous woman be even more nervous.
Blank.
Blank is all I see. I can't form my muse, I know I said Addi will be my muse but I can't find where to start. The hard part of everything is the beginning and I'm starting to doubt myself now. Why am I here again? Do I even belong here?
I watched students holding their brushes being so sure of their potentials.
I look back on my canvas and still blank. Acrylic smell is all over the space.
I should go, now.
But before I can stand up someone entered the room.
It was Mr. Baldomero and...oh god Euro's here too. What a nice moment this is.
I peek as they shake hands with other panel judges and make remark about how grateful they are for making the contest happen.
Euro sat with Fabio, he had this teenage aura radiating off him and I know instantly that he's up in a good mood.
Looking back on my white canvass, I tried to focus again. What should I paint? maybe if I start drawing Addison's face now it would be easier.
Engulfed in my thoughts I hardly notice someone standing behind me.
"You're doing great" Euro's voice whispered behind me. It was so low and gravelly, alerting the hairs of my nape.
"I haven't even done a single shit" I whispered back and he chuckled.
"A shit..." he weighed my word and his face looks fascinated.
"Stop, go away I can't focus when you're around" I told him in a hushed tone.
"Finish this shit up we're going to Maldives later" He said so normally and I literally dropped my jaw.
"What!?" I scramble to my feet and realize I shouted, now damn eyes are on us.
Euro tucked his hands on his pants pocket "Well as I was saying Ms. Fair, you should have started by now, you only have 2 and a half hour to go"
He pretended to roam around the room looking at each student's canvass. I scowled at him and sat back on my chair.
I heard Euro say "I'm going father" as he exited the room.
My anxiety deepens. How can he decide that abruptly? Like when did he ever told me about our flight to Maldives, he's so damn annoying. Annoying shit.
I smiled at my thoughts, it felt so relaxing to curse Euro in my head.
Sooner my hand was painting on it's own drawing a familiar scenery in my head. A scene that will always give comfort to me. I can't deny the intense feeling inside my heart as my brush moves and color's combined, in my head this is all I see and what I'll always end up seeing.
I may not be able to see clearly of the future ahead, but this...this moment is what I'll always remember. Ten years from now, I know it would always be what I see, my safe haven. Tears started dripping down my eyes before I can fight it as realization dawned on me, I have grown so fond of the man, of Euro. I hate to admit because it's part of the contract..that I shouldn't never, ever fall in love with him.
I looked back at my work. This is what I'll take once he make me leave, I know he would sooner or later...this warm perfect moment with him, with Euro.
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