Seeking Stars In Your Eyes

☆Twenty-Five☆

 Gray was kissing Natsu. That was actually happening. Natsu, of course, he kissed back, despite his head turning into a tomato. Natsu noticed that Gray's lips tasted like mint, Mabey if he ever wanted a mint he could just Kiss Gray since apparently, he is a human mint. On a more sensitive note, he felt that he loved Gray. He loved him with his heart, He loved him with his Soul. Natsu was always avoidant of romance because he was scared of it. Natsu's muscles were shaking, most likely from fear and being giddy. 

He assumed that Gray liked him back, after all, he was kissing him. If Gray doesn't like him back, then well, he is going to feel like a fool, manipulated, and played. Gray wouldn't do that to him though, Gray wouldn't do that to anyone. Gray was vulnerable with him, Gray kissed him, Gray was his best friend since they were 8. Gray and Natsu have laughed together, cried together, fought together. There was no way Gray would ruin that. 

So why was it so surprising to Natsu that Gray was kissing him? They went through the same situations together and Natsu fell in love with him. So why did it surprise him that Gray loved him too? 

Fear. Fear that Gray wouldn't like someone like Natsu. Fear that he secretly hated him. Fear that Natsu would get hurt. Fear of loving. The fear of rejection. The fear that Natsu was too much of a screw-up. 

But, Natsu didn't feel like a screw up now. He felt...loved? That was new. He was used to feeling like a burden to his friends, or that he was so spectacularly stupid in comparison to his friends. Even when they cheered him on, he felt like they'd be better off without him.

He didn't feel that way now.

That scared him.

Gray pulled away from the kiss gasping for air. Gray felt shaken to his core, he shouldn't have done that. He should have asked. Gray should have thought about that more. He had never kissed anyone before, what if Natsu didn't want to be kissed? Or what If Gray was bad at kissing? Gray was afraid of what was going to happen next.

What if, What if, so many what ifs. It's done and over. 

"I'm sorry, I should have-" Gray unpinned Natsu from the wall and turned dramatically towards the window.

"No, don't be sorry!" Natsu grabbed Gray's arm, "I liked it."

"Y-you liked it?" Gray's eyes widened, "You know I've never kissed anyone."

"Well I haven't either so I guess my standards are low," Natsu teased.

"Still." Gray shook Natsu's hand off his arm, "I should have asked."

"Gray?"Natsu looked down.

"Yeah?" Gray furrowed his eyebrows and pushed his bottom lip out slightly.

"What are we?" Natsu sat down on the floor, "I'm just really confused. I love you but we're not dating. I don't know what to do, or what to say. You kissed me and I liked it. I don't think you know what to do either. We even fucking live together and we have slept in the same bed together yet.. uGh. What the hell are we Gray?"

"Well, I uh, your right. I don't know what to do. Bloody fuck, it's not like I know what we are either. I...do feel the same as you, but I don't think you want to deal with me. I'm a handful." Gray sat on the couch and put his face in his hands, "You tell me, what are we?"

"First off, I have two hands. Secondly, we can be whatever we want, I suppose." Natsu sighed, "What do we want to be?"

"I...I want you to be mine. I'm not very sure if I would be good at dating or a good boyfriend. I have no experience in love." Gray shuddered.

Natsu bit his lip, "Let me be your experience then and we can learn together." 

Natsu got up and sat next to him, wrapping his arms around Gray, "Because, I have no experience either."

Natsu was trembling and his arms shook. His eyes glittered with nervousness but there was also hope and love shining in them. Natsu closed his eyes and waited.

"You always know what to say, don't you, flame brain?" Gray looked up and smiled softly. Gray folded his arms around Natsu bringing him in closer, Gray leaned Natsu onto him.

"Maybe I do. Maybe I just know emotions." Natsu kept his eyes closed, his voice was quieter and gentle. Natsu was like a warm fire dwelling in a fireplace, not too hot, not too cold. Just, warm.

"Well, If I'm going, to be honest, I'm afraid," Gray's voice was cracked and heavy with emotion.

"Me too. My love for you is stronger than my fear of my love for you, so please, take your time. I don't want to rush you. I don't want to mess this up." Natsu let out a breath, despite the tangle of stress still in his chest.

"If love be blind, love cannot hit the mark. You're not going to get it perfect, I'm not. No one is." Gray twisted and twirled Natsu's hair.

"Did you just quote Shakespeare?" Natsu opened his eyes and looked at him.

"Maybe, but let's take a blind shot, so, Would you like to be my boyfriend?" Gray met Natsu's gleaming gold eyes

"Yeah, I'd love to." Natsu grinned and hugged him tightly.

Gray smiled at him, "You're mine, and that makes me happy."

"You make me happy too." Natsu giggled.