“Maybe it's enough that I have laid here
Maybe it's enough that I have known inside my head, and
Maybe it's enough to know that we were here together”
The song for this one is “For Now” by Kina Grannis. When I first heard it, I immediately thought of Sanem. She’s a dreamer, a stargazer, a writer, a romantic. I think it really captures her mood for this chapter.
-Her-
Can Bey:
I never said I didn’t want to see you. : )
Sanem
Why did she send that?! She meant it but still. And the emoji? She was so pathetic.
Pathetically in love with him.
Ping!
When?
Can
Allah Allah. He was eager.
Can Bey:
I don’t know. I can’t exactly get around by myself yet and you wouldn’t have a warm welcome if you came here. : /
Sanem
It was best to be forthright about the situation.
Ping!
I just really want to talk to you, but I want to do it face to face.
Can
He didn’t specify but she knew what he meant. He wanted to talk about them. But he wanted to do it right. She wanted that too. She wanted to look in his eyes and feel his words and not just hear them.
Can Bey:
I want that too.
Sanem
Send.
Then:
Can Bey:
I miss you.
Sanem
Send.
Idiot! Why do I keep doing this? She had zero impulse control when it came to him.
Ping!
I miss you so much. I loved holding your hand at the hospital, but it was only for an hour and that was over a week ago now so...essentially I am miserable. ; )
Can
He tried to use the emoji to soften his statement, but it still irritated her. She had gone three weeks with absolutely nothing from him so he knew nothing about misery.
But...he did say he missed her too. She decided to keep it light, at least until they could talk face to face.
Can Bey:
Could we just message each other for a while? Send selfies so we can see what the other is doing? I will let you know when I am able to get out of the house.
Sanem
Hopefully that was good?
Ping!
I’m stuck at work now but when I get home I will send you a picture. My selfie wouldn’t be cute rn because I don’t really want to be here . : P
Can
What was with him and the emojis? It was kind of endearing how hard he was trying.
Ping!
Send me a pic? Seeing your pretty face will cheer me up.
Can
Okay, wow. That’s more like the old Can, but she wasn’t ready for it. He was bold, she could be bold.
She snapped a selfie and pressed send.
She had no make-up on and was still stuck on the sofa in the sitting room so she didn’t have the best lighting. It wasn’t the best she’s ever looked by a long shot, but she was trying to get more comfortable with accepting herself as she was.
Ping!
You look happy and comfortable, I hope you are. And so so beautiful, you always are.
Can
Why did he have to be like this? She bit her lip to keep from smiling.
Can Bey:
I’m going to rest now so don’t think I’m ignoring you. Text me later?
Sanem
Ping!
Of course. Sweet dreams.
Can
They would be. She let herself smile big as she shut her eyes, her phone clutched to her chest.
YOU ARE READING
It's all because of you
Fanfiction"But I would rather feel the sting Than never to have felt a thing I'll always know you were the one To rip me from the ground"
