"You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh you say that I am yours
And I believe, oh I believe
What you say of me
I believe"
"You Say” by Lauren Daigle is the song for this chapter. This is a kind of filler transitional chapter but I still wanted it to have strong messages and move the story along. Bolum 36 really showed the power of love between Can and Sanem and Can and Sanem’s family. I wanted to bring a little bit of that to this small chapter.
-Her-
Today was the day. It was going to be the biggest day of her life, hopefully. The only thing that was keeping her from jumping out of her skin was the thought of seeing Can again after nearly a week without him.
She put on the outfit Leyla helped her pick out the night before and swiped on her favorite lipstick before applying her homemade perfume crème. She walked downstairs on wobbly knees. She ignored her mother’s calls for breakfast and slipped her feet out of her house slippers and into her high heels.
“Sanem, çocuğum?” she knew her mom was concerned, but she just couldn’t think about food right now.
When she didn’t hear a response, her mother came into the hallway to see that she was ready to go out. Instead of scolding her or forcing her to sit and eat, Mevkibe just patted her cheek and gave her a sympathetic look.
“Bebek? Don’t worry so much. I know the meeting with the publisher will go well.”
her mom kissed both of her cheeks and fixed a stray hair. “Besides, Leyla will be there. And Can too.”
She smiled a little and rolled her eyes. “They won’t be in the room with me, just in the office above, but you’re right. I do feel better with them near me.”
Leyla appeared from the kitchen and got ready to leave with her. Their mother squeezed each of their arms with her warm hands and sent them on their way. They walked arm in arm to the bus stop like they used to when they both worked at the agency. She missed it, and consciously soaked it in so she could keep the memory close. She didn’t talk much due to nerves, but got lost in thought on the bus ride downtown.
She smiled when she thought back to her mother mentioning Can this morning. Both of her parents had really warmed to him in the months since her accident. Part of it had to do with him respecting their wishes and just being his polite and kind self. She thought the other part might be that they could see how much he loved her, and she loved him. They knew that it was forever for both of them. Whenever he kissed her mother’s cheeks or told her dad a funny story and clapped him on the back her heart bloomed in her chest. She had known for a long time now that she loved him, would love him for the rest of her life, but seeing him fit with her family made her fall even more in love with him. He finally had the family he didn’t have growing up, and she was honored that she could give that to him.
She had a little while before her meeting with the publisher Yigit Bey, so she decided to go upstairs to the agency first. She bid Leyla goodbye at her office door and took a few more steps to Can’s office.
“Günaydın sevgilim. You look beautiful.” he stood up from his desk and walked over to kiss her cheeks and give her a small hug.
“Sal Can.” she was still nervous, but just feeling his touch settled her.
He sensed her mood and pulled her in to hug her tighter.
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Fanfiction"But I would rather feel the sting Than never to have felt a thing I'll always know you were the one To rip me from the ground"
