Leila's life was simple as classical music when she surround herself with her loved ones and rhythm. Other than being criticized and likely bullied by the jocks and preps, Leila finds solace with one of the unexpected ones. Xander. They were very di...
"They say that you Can't fall in love with someone, If you don't love yourself. Well, it's a complete lie. Because I've loved you before I loved myself. And...you made me forget that I even hate myself."
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SCARED. I was super scared. No- I was heaving a mental breakdown. Okay Leila, deep breath. In and out, this is not the first time you're gonna sing in front of whole other people. You just sang your own song in front of the guys! Especially musician guys!
But...this was different. What Xander said was more impossible to me. Singing that song..... That was the first song I have ever poured my heart and soul in it and doing it again...I might die.
"No." "Yes." "No no." "Yes. And yes." "Xander, listen to me." I said, giving a serious tone. "I never wanted to join that- What?" "Maudlin. M-A-U-D-L-I-N." "Right, um...mau...Maudlin, I never wanted to join Maudlin. I tend to do things at indoor. Not outdoor. I'm more like cats. Indoor cats. I love writing and singing and only on inside. Not outside and..." "Shush." Xander said, putting his index finger on my lip. Again. "Don't you ever stop talking so fast?" "No." I said, shutting out his finger from my lip. "And don't you ever do that again." "Do what?" "Like...you have some kind of control or force on me." "Do I?" "Huh? No what- wait just a second, I'm pointing out something very important here and don't you dare to change this subject." "Lei, all you have to do is go, sing your first song, Quintin will like and I know he'll definitely like, become a songwriter slash singer and boom! Everything is done. Easy, four steps." "Second step is hard. I'll sing any song Xan, I will. But..." "You called me Xan." "Hm?" "You called me Xan. You always called my by my full name but you called me Xan. You just given me a nickname."
I did. And that was truly unexpected. Well....it's not my fault. Is it? His name is so long and it takes more than one second which was total waste of time so I had to...give him a smaller name. I know I would weird right now but hey, Xan suits him.
This guy was taller at...literally everything. He didn't really needed a big name, does he?
"Well, Yeah." I said, sheepishly rubbing the back of my neck. "I...it just came."
Xander smiled.
"Anyway....no, I can't do this. I'm...I have..." "What?" "I have some feelings for this song. A long time feelings and...it's hard to do it. To share..." "Your true feelings."
For a second, we looked at each other. And I nodded, unable to understand what this could mean but- Xander was too good at knowing stuff.
Don't know why.
"Lei..." he called out my nickname and walked over to me. Caressing my right cheek and I was...not moving. Literally.
We looked at each other. My meadow comes in darkness of his eyes. I couldn't see his pupils clearly. Imagining how dark those eyes can be. And suddenly, my eyes travelled to...the down.
