~~~"All my friends used to say that,
I was living in a dream,
A dream of you.
That'll never happen.
At least, that's what they used to think.
Until now.~~~
THERE was no one.Hiding myself on a girls bathroom is a bit hysterical. But what do you do when the one guy you never thought would ever say that he loves you well...say that he loves you? And telling everyone, literally everyone at school?
You think of a place where you can think about that very clearly about what to do about it. At least, that's the best possible solution for me.
He confessed. He confessed to everyone. I didn't know about what he had done to me through the past years and I never really intended to know why people sudden started being mean towards me from being nice. And truth to be told, I never really cared.
And he confessed. After so many years, he still confessed. So what am I supposed to do here? Forgive him? Or hold a grudge against him? What should I do?
What do I want to do?
I took a deep breath. Right now, I wanna become a nun or meditate at the top of any hill forever. Because, I have no idea what to do now. Except sit at the top of the commode and wait until whole classes are over.
See? I'm being hysterical here.
But if Xander hadn't confessed, I wouldn't know what he did to me and I probably wouldn't have confessed to myself that- well, I fallen for him.
Which could make this life well enough and easy enough to die.
But of course; this so called life always create an adventure. God loves to create an adventure. Which, of course, God knows that it's my nightmare, the one he create an adventure of it.
What do I do?
"Hello? Is anyone there?" A girly voice came outside from the door and I realized that I took way more time in this than I ever thought and still, I had no answer.
"Um, hello? Listen, I really have to go there. Otherwise, there's a possibility that I might take a piss here." She said, out of the blue. "A really good possibility."
Shit.
I exited my place and opened the door quietly and she hurried here as quickly as possible.
As she went there, I could hear a deep sigh while there was sound of- taking a piss. More like she was in a heaven and she'll forever spend her life here, in this girls bathroom.
I still didn't got the courage to go there and face Xander. So, I stayed here long enough for the end of that girl, taking a piss.
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Confederate & Feelings
RomansaLeila's life was simple as classical music when she surround herself with her loved ones and rhythm. Other than being criticized and likely bullied by the jocks and preps, Leila finds solace with one of the unexpected ones. Xander. They were very di...