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Chapter 25

We walk in silence. I don't think they're enough words to say goodbye. There are a lot of things I wish I could say but knowing nothing is going to change anything makes me be silent.

I love him.

I think goodbyes makes us just keep the good memories of someone, makes it harder to even think of not having that person by your side anymore.

I love him. He made my heartbeat come back to life again, literally and figuratively. He saved my life and also he gave my life purpose.

I have no words to express what I'm feeling.

I don't know when our paths are going to cross again.

Who knows, maybe I'll see him 10 years from now with someone else; maybe he'll find true love. Just thinking about it makes me sick, I don't want him with anyone else, I want him with me, I want to grow old with him, I want to look back into my life and realize I was happy next to him. But I can't. I made up my mind and I cannot change it now.

- Hey Ruth, - he says and I look at him.

- Yes? -

- Don't forget about me, please. - He says softly and I can feel my heartbeat going faster.

- Never. - I whisper.

He stops once we get closer to the car in the parking lot. I look at him admiring his beauty. Trying to memorize every part of his face, looking at his lips wondering if I ever know what they taste like. We make eye contact and I can't help but smile, he smiles back and a tear runs through my cheek. I haven't cry in a while. He immediately hugs me tight and I hug him back.

- Please don't go. - He says exhaling.

- I'm sorry. It's something that I have to do. - I push myself back because I know if I don't let him go now I'll never will.