In My Dreams (TMR A Maze Runner Fanfic) (SEQUEL IS IN HER DREAMS)

Chapter 7. "uhhh...no?"

I had avoided Newt for the last couple days. I was afraid of my feelings. I loved him, but I felt like I couldn't tell him. After our kiss I didn't know what to think. I could tell I was hurting Newt, but I denied it so I could continue sorting out my thoughts. I needed security, I needed him to tell me that he loved me first. Then I would know that I could tell him without being worried he didn't love me back. I still wasn't ready to face his questions though. I was also worried he regretted what happened. He didn't seem to notice that I was avoiding him. I looked across the glade and I saw him talking to Zart by the gardens. He was laughing and smiling, he was happy, he was normal. I felt lonely without him, but I still couldn't talk to him. 

"Hey," I heard a voice behind me. "are you okay?"

"yeah, just thinking." I replied to the builder. 

"'bout what?" Ben asked. 

"Oh, ya know, just about...the maze." I lied. 

"Yeah, we all wonder about the maze from time to time." he informed me. 

"Yeah..." I trailed off. We just stood there looking at our surroundings for a large amount of time.

"Do you have a job yet?" he asked me.

"No, Alby thinks that I need to give the other gladers some space for now, then when there totally comfortable with me being here he'll show me the jobs. I think that will be soon, I mean everybody seems pretty normal to me."

"yeah, but there are some guys that you don't want to hear what they say. There calmed down, but not necessarily normal." Ben informed me. I recalled the look a boy gave me this morning at breakfast; his smirk was intimidating and his piercing blue eyes seemed to boar into the very depths of my soul. Ben was right, things weren't normal. "Are you avoiding Newt?" Ben asked me. I froze in place, my eyes went wide. My heart started beating faster. Was it that noticeable? 

"uhhh..no?" I said, but it came out like a question; I was a terrible lier. 

"I didn't think so, Newt just said that it seemed like it and that he missed you and he hoped he didn't do anything wrong." Ben explained. I felt horrible, Newt missed me? I can't keep doing this.

"No, i'm not ignoring him, in fact I was planning on going to see him when were done talking." I announced, lying once again. Now I really had to see Newt; I just dug myself a big ol' hole. 

"Oh! Well and that case i'll let you go ahead!" Ben said with a smile.

"NO!" I yelled " I mean, that's okay, we can still talk, right?" I asked hoping to buy myself some time. 

"Yeah, but you should go and so should I." Ben announced walking away. I left to find Newt.