Kidnapping Sophie

The darkness creeps over me

Song: Cut by Plumb

'WARNING: This chapter has self harming...the voices are more controlling. If you need to skip over this one...I totally understand.' - Leslie

When he leaves for work the next day, I don't bother getting out of the bed. I'm surprised that he doesn't force me to get up. I have no clue what time it is but I have to force myself out of the bed to go to the bathroom. When I'm done peeing, I step slowly to the sink and look into the broken mirror.

The weird thing is...is that I don't recognize the girl looking back at me. Her eyes are all puffy from crying all night. Scared of what he is going to do to her. I am scared of Jasper...but I'm scared of him more. He walks in the bathroom, standing right behind me. The shadow is starting to turn more into a figure and he scares the hell out of me.

"You want me to save you this time...don't you?"

I nod my head.

"You finally had enough."

I nod again.

"There is rope in the living room...go get it."

I turn and walk out of the bathroom and right into the living room. There is a rope that is hanging from the window; I have noticed it since the day I arrived. I take it off and make a nice knot in it. I follow him into the bedroom and into the closet. "You can wrap it around the pole for the clothes...it should hold you up."

I wrap it around and even grab one of the chairs from the kitchen to stand on. I don't even think about the whole process of doing it. I step onto the chair and then put my head in the loop. He is watching me the whole time. He kicks the chair out from under me and I dangle to my death.Only the damn pole rips out of the wall and I fall landing on my ass. I lay there for a few minutes and then take the damn rope off.

He laughs hysterically. "What a freaking joke...you are wasting my time."

"I'm sorry....alright...hell this place is a freaking dump. I'm surprised the whole damn place hasn't crumpled to the ground."

I hear the front door open and steps coming in my direction. It's Jasper...he is home early. He comes into the room yelling for me when I don't respond he starts searching the little trailer and then comes back to the bedroom and sees me sitting in the closet. His clothes all over the floor from where the pole fell, not to mention the rope is still attached. "What the hell is going on here?"

I shrug. I can barely look up at him.

"Sophie...darlin', is this all about Justin...I told you he will never do that again. Come on get up now." He reaches down to hold his hand out for me to grab and I let him pull me up. "You been acting really weird lately...what the hell is going on?"

"I...I...I... don't have my meds...the voices are coming back...I need my meds." I tell him sounding like I have had too much to drink however I am sober as can be.

"And how do you think I am going to be able to do that?" He throws his hands up in the air.

"Get it from the hospital...Jasper you don't want to see me this way." I warn him.

"I will take my chances...now come on let's get something to eat." He doesn't let go of my hand as he pulls me into the kitchen. Of course I am the one that has to cook. I try to...I try my best but I burn it and he gets really pissed off. The trailer fills up with smoke and he is running around opening up the door and fanning the smoke out. "What the hell Sophie...can't you do anything? Shit all you had to do is fix a damn pork chop and some can veggies....it's not that fucking hard."

I just glare back at him. I want to tell him off...I want too.We end up eating a ham sandwich...one thin slice of meat on two plain pieces of bread. He is not happy about it and to show me that he is not he slaps me. I fall to the floor in seconds. He throws my sandwich on the floor and laughs. "Eat it off the damn floor."

"Why are you so hateful? Why do you even want me...I'm useless. Can't you see I can't do anything right." I look down at the sandwich...with now flakes of whatever dirt is on there.

He squats down beside me and holds my head up for me to look into his eyes. "Because I own you now and quite frankly my darlin'...you are a nice little piece of ass."

"I'm only going to get worse...you will see...you will let me go."

"Well we will just have to wait and see won't we now." He leans down and presses his lips up against mine. "Do I need to take everything out of here so you will not harm yourself again?"

I look at him all puzzled... "What are you talking about?"

"The rope darlin'. Was you trying to hang yourself?"

"What...no." I lie. I don't want to die...but what if I have no control over those thoughts. What if the next time he manages to go through it? That night we are in bed and Jasper is completely out.

The dark figure wakes me up. "Get up Sophie...get up now."I sit up and watch him walk across the room. He motions for me to follow him. I slide out of the bed careful not to wake up Jasper. He is going into the bathroom and he points to the sink.

"What?"

"He is going to continue to hurt you. You need to do it now. Take the blade from the razor."I don't ask questions as I fight with the blade until it is out. I look up at him.

 "Now what?"

"Use it...you know what to do."

"No...I don't want to."

"Do it...Sophie. It's the only way out of here."

"I can't...please can't you just leave me alone."

"I said do it. Don't make me ask you again."I hold the blade up against my wrist and as I am making the first cut he enters the bathroom.

"What the hell....darlin'." Jasper reaches over and takes the blade out of my hand. Of course I already made a nice deep cut right into my wrist. He is panicking as he is searching for something to wrap around it. "Shit....what the hell."He manages to wrap it up as I sit leaning up against the toilet.

 I start to puke. Thankfully the toilet is super close to me and all I have to do is lean over and empty out everything. When he is done he shakes his head and picks me up carrying me back to the bed.

"What is going on?"

"I'm sick."

"No shit...in the freaking head...you going crazy."

"I just need the meds...I will be back to normal."

He keeps shaking his head and I know that he will never steal any. "You were not like the other girls there...that is why I wanted you."

"But I am like them...that is why I need my meds. Just forget it."

"Fine I will see what I can do tomorrow." He lays back down beside me. He wraps his body around mine. I guess this way he thinks that I will be safe in his arms. I hate to tell him he is so wrong.