Never Let You Down | Book 1

Chapter 6 "To Be Or Not To Be"

Continuation from last time...

"what!" jay said looking a little taken back by what I just said.

"I sai-"

"no I heard what you said, I mean, but, like, h-how?" he asked looking confused.

"jay I'm sure you know how baby's are made"

"duh, I just mean like, but you were drinking and smoking and shit with us last night"

"yea, but I didn't think I could really possibly be pregnant until this morning"

"well what makes you think your pregnant anyways"

"I was throwing up this morning"

"so, that could just be because you had a hangover" he shrugged.

"yea but I've been having morning sickness for about a week and a half now"

"and.., that still doesn't mean your pregnant"

I sighed. "jay, I think I'm pregnant okay, I mean I don't know for sure but I just feel like I am"

he sighed deeply. "wait, so that means you just be letting that nigga go up in you raw!" he sorta spat, I was a little taken back now.

"no! we use protection, just sometimes when we're caught up in the moment shit happens and we don't"

"that's so fuckin stupid beyoncé!, what if you catch something from that nigga, or what if he purposely busted a nut up in you so he can get you pregnant and dip!"

"yo chill! Wills not even like that, he makes sure he pulls out, and I'm hundred percent sure he's clean!"

"yea okay, is that what he tells you so he don't have to put a condom on, "ima pull out", hun, how you know he ain't lyin, he probably just be playin yo ass sayin he pullin out and yo stupid ass just believe him!"

"first of all!, like I said, Will is a good man and he's not like that, he cares about me and wouldn't purposely try to get me pregnant! secondly!, we rarely don't use a condom when we have sex, and that's thanks to him, And Third! Its none of your damn business if ME and MY BOYFRIEND!, use a condom or not, its my body!, and if I want him to bust a nut all up in me and get me pregnant, that's our business, not yours! So don't stand here and try to chastise me about being careful and using protection, you not my fuckin daddy!, I lost him a long time ago and don't need you as no damn replacement!, you need to just worry about making sure you wrap it up with all these loose hoes you fuckin so they don't trap yo ass!" I spat angry ass hell at him with tears falling from eyes.

he just sat there looking stupid, I wiped the tears off my face. "jay just take me hom-, actually no, I'll find my own way home" I said as i started walking towards the door.

"wait, bey!" jay called as he caught up with me before I walked out, he grabbed my arm stopping me. "I'm sorry" he said.

"you should be! how could you say some stupid shit like that to me!" I said turning to face him.

"look I'm sorry for coming at you like that, but I'm just saying bey!, how could you be so careless!"

"careless!?, jay how am I being careless!"

"What you mean!, you out here letting niggas fuck you raw and shit!"

"no, not niggas! One nigga, Will!, so don't try to fuckin play me like I'm a hoe"

"you actin like a hoe!" he spat.

"and you actin like a jealous bitch!" I spat back.

"yo watch yo fuckin mouth!" he said stepping in my face.