Bad vs Bad

Chapter 19

Valeska’s p.o.v

“Okay, spill the tea!” said Mary and jumped excited up and down as we began walking.

“About what?” I chuckled at her behavior.

She’s 25 and still just as excited as a 2-year-old. She’s Martino’s girlfriend and my closest friend of all time.

“About that Cayden guy! And don’t try to tell me that it’s nothing because I see that’s it not”

“I don’t really know what we are, actually” I shrugged.

“What do you mean?”

“I don’t know if were friends or something more than that” I said and looked down in the pavement.

“You don’t know? From his side it totally looks like you’re the only thing he ever wants to look at”

“I’m not so sure tho...”

“But PLEASE Valeska! You don’t see it?”

“See what?”

“You don’t see it? You’re kidding me right”

I just shook my head from side to side.

She took a hold of my arms making me halt and look at her.

“Thank God you have kept me updated all the time” she sighed and shook her head.

“Don't you see the way he looked at you? Don’t you feel that a hug from him is different from other hugs? The way he always pays attention to what you say and looks at you as if you were telling the best story ever to a 4-year-old? I know you have major trust issues and you are afraid of falling in love-“

“Everything that falls breaks” I muttered.

“You always say that Valeska. Martino told me that you and Cayden had an argument earlier today and you had blackouted on him and still, after fighting with you both with words and fists so has he stayed. Right beside you. You have made a bruise and cut on him, you have told him some thing of what have happened, you have for God’s sake slept in the same bed as him Valeska! You let him hug and kiss you, you let him be near you, you let that guy touch you first of all. He saved you from Ziko, Vladimir and Lara, and after that he carried you around, feeding you with ice-cream and then going to sleep safe and sound in his arms. Do you understand what I mean now?”

After had given it said to me I understood a little. Can, can he like me? I mean...

“But most important. Do you like him?”

Do I like him? Of course I do.

“Yeah, I do like him” I said looking down as reality hit me. I fucking like Cayden. I can’t.

“I think I can even go as far to say you LOVE him, and I know you’re afraid of love, but I think you have fallen in love with Cayden without noticing”

“Love is a negative word. It's used in so many lies and sentences as ‘I love seeing you in pain’ which I have heard way too often. It's a word who can both break and heal a mind, soul and heart. That's why I'm afraid of love, because I'm already broken inside and I don’t know if I can take it” I said with tears clouding my vision.

“I know Valeska, I know, please, don’t cry” she said and pulled me into a hug witch I didn’t respond.

“You know what I think? I think you need a hug from your boy, Cayden. It's almost 2 either way so” she said before pulling me back to the arena.

Cayden already stood leaned against his car waiting for us to come back. His smile faded when he saw my teary eyes. He rushed up to us and pushed Mary out of his way in the process.

“Baby, what happened? Why are you crying?” he said and lightly cupped my face with both of his hands.

His eyes held nothing else than worry in them, then he turned to Mary.

“What the fuck did you say to her!?” he yelled at her.

“Don’t yell at me. I haven’t said anything to make her cry I would never do that. The only things I said just made her realize something she already knew and that she was too scared to believe in herself. Let's just say reality slapped her in the face. Hard"

And with that she left.

Cayden turned around and picked me up as he hugged me. I wrapped my arms and legs around him thinking of what Mary had said.

Does he like me like I like him?