Y'all the bleach bath was very relaxing, but hella toxic 😂, god writing that last chapter really fried my brain, I'm so glad I have this already written, welp on with the story
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When Yoongi awoke it was way past morning, he expected to be tied up, to feel every Fibre of his body hurt and beaten, instead he woke up on the floor, his pants still off and hanging at his ankles, white liquid all over them, he felt simply disgusted, nothing more, only disgust, he sat up, ignoring the sharp wave of pain going through his body, he grabbed some tissues and wiped the white substance off his pants before pulling them up, he glanced at the clock 1:57 pm, that was shocking, he passed out for about 7 hours, well thinking about what happened it was no surprise.
When he was about to leave he spotted something black and shiny on Dak-hos desk and stuffed it into his pocket without thinking twice before making his way out of the office.
He made his way through the now busy building, getting greeted a few times but he ignored it and just walked his way to the dorms.
He opened the door to the dorms, not looking up once, he was met with a dead silent house, he dragged his body through the hall, truth is he was only now experiencing all the pain he should've been experiencing when he woke up, and it felt like a car had run him over ... twice, well reality wasn't that much better.
On other days Maybe Yoongi would've just recollected himself but today Yoongi just had enough, Namjoon had yelled at him, slapped him even, then Dak-ho raping him, it was all too much, he broke to so many pieces it was impossible to put him back together, his will to live had been Fading away slowly over these past few weeks And now with his body hurting he was truly, Broken beyond repair, at least in his mind.
He was a puzzle piece that fit nowhere, not in Bangtan Sonyeondan, Not in the other six boys's relationship and certainly not into the world.
He stood before his shared room and remembered all the laughter and love he had once experienced here, now everything was just quiet and uninviting, he didn't know where the others were, he guessed they were in the studio or something, not like they would ever mind or even care, they hated him, he was sure, he wasn't angry at them he just felt ... empty.
He went into the room and took another look around „Hyungs gonna be happy to have space" he grimaced at the painful crack of his voice, even if he only whispered it was still noticeable.
He went to Seokjins closet and took out one of his hyungs famous pink hoodies, he rid himself of the clothes e was wearing now and pulled the soft and fluffy fabric over his messy hair, he really hoped his only Hyung would forgive him for what the sweater was about to witness, he pulled on some shorts and made his way to the bathroom.
He walked in and noticed the black box he stored his blades in was on full display on the counter „well guess that secret is out" he whispered to himself, not that it mattered now, nothing did.
He turned on the faucet of the tub to cold and let the water run in before taking out the Black Pocket knife he had taken from the Managers office earlier and switched up the biggest blade, he sat into the bathtub and turned the showerhead on, then rolled up the sleeves of the nice pink sweater he had stolen.
(Snack break, reasons :
1: the next scenes are gonna be intense
2: I'm out of water, I need a bigger reusable bottle ;-;
3: I haven't done anything else than writing today and I'm getting hangry
So let's eat together before we continue howzabout it? Yeah ? Great!)
Yoongi let the cold water drench him for a minute before he set the blade on his wrist, a few stray tears escaped him as he pressed down hard and slid the blade down his arm diagonally, watching as the flesh on his arm parted for the blade like the zipper of a jacket, when he was halfway down one arm he switched the blade to his other hand and repeated the motion, stopping for a split second when he heard the front door Opening, it didn't matter now, he threw the pocket knife to the side, the incision was deep enough and blood was already flowing like crazy down his arms, he started loosing consciousness but still noticed the voices, seemingly his bandmates, they sounded ... distressed ? Yoongi didn't know all he heard was
„Yoongi-ah are you here!" and „Hyung please respond!" One was Jin, that was for sure, the other voice he wasn't sure who it was, not that it mattered anyways.
He heard slight footsteps and someone banging at the door but couldn't make out the words as his consciousness continued to slip from him.
The Door was thrown open and a shout echoed through the dorm, there ,frozen, stood Seokjin Looking at Yoongis limp body bleeding out in the bathtub, behind the oldest was Their leader then Hoseok then the Maknaes, all of them were shouting, screaming but Yoongi couldn't distinguish any of them, his brain simply muddled all their voices together.
Jin was the first to Unfreeze, he jumped forward pulling Yoongis body out of the bloodied bathtub, by this time Yoongis vision had gone hazy, colors were melting together, he couldn't focus and barley even acknowledge when pressure was put on his arms, e could hear someone whispering to him as he tried to keep his eyes open, if this was the last time he'd ever see the six boys before him he'd want to stay awake for a bit longer.
„H-Hyung no, Please Please No no, Just stay awake, please, no, No , Nononono! Stay awake Hyung!, HYUNG!" it had been Jungkook who was talking to him before the grip on his consciousness finally escaped his grasp and everything turned black.
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Literal hell broke loose once Yoongi Closed his eyes, Hoesok was practically shouting into the phone panicked and pleading to the 911 Operator to hurry up,
Jin was still holding Yoongi right in his arms, tears in his eyes, Jimin and Taehyung were each pressing towels down on one of Yoongis arms, which showed to be quite useless since the towels were soaked in mere minutes, up until Yoongi had passed out Jungkook was next to him, but the second Yoongi closed his eyes the Maknae became hysteric having to be pulled out of the bathroom by Namjoon who was now currently trying to help Jungkook through a panic attack, yes he wanted to Help Yoongi too but there was nothing he could do.
After what felt like years a group of Paramedics finally arrived, swiftly pushing Jin, Jimin and Taehyung out of the bathroom, checking Yoongis vitals, strapping the now unconscious rapper onto a stretcher and wheeling him out of the dorm, leaving only the name of the hospital they were going to bring him to.
Once the Paramedics has left the boys were frozen for a few seconds before the 95 liners broke the silence and fell into each other, hugging as they cried, Jungkook had been encased by namjoon the second the paramedics had come and had yet to be released, Jin and Hoseok were staring at the floor for a while just processing what had just happened.
Jin was the first to speak, even through his tears „W-we have to go to the H-hospital"
—— Time skip - At the Hospital ——
The boys were sitting in dead silence, well they weren't talking but they were still crying, especially Jungkook and Namjoon, Jungkook of course because he was the youngest and always hurt when one of his hyungs hurt so seeing one of them straight out try to kill himself left him pretty damaged at the moment, Then Namjoon, he just straight out blamed himself for everything, being the leader he should've noticed his hyungs behavior, he should've kept his cool and not yelled at Yoongi or slap him, they were all blaming themselves in one way or another,
Jin was thinking at how he should've cared for Yoongi a little more, make him eat something, or for God's sake literally shove food down the Youngers throat like he had done with Jimin not even two days prior.
Taehyung was Blaming himself for not stepping up for his Hyung when the others were blaming him for things.
Jimin was crying about how he should've stopped and considered his hyungs feelings before he shouted at him for wanting to help.
Hoseok was breaking down because he noticed it all, noticed how Yoongi hadn't been eating or sleeping, had seen when Yoongi helped the boys and yet he hadn't said anything, now he had lost his best friend and lover.
They all thought the same thing in the end and Jungkook did a great Job voicing it out :
„How could we forget about Yoongi like that?"
It stayed silent, no one had anything to say, until the door opened and Manager Seijin and a doctor came in.
Seijin looked at them, a sad look on his face before he spoke „Boys we have some new on Yoongi, He's ...."
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Okay that's it for today 3 chapters is all I can do per day without them being shitty, I really J-hope you enjoyed the chapter and I'm not sorry for the cliffhanger
Anyways that's it stay safe Bonbons 🍬
Love youuu 💜💜💜💜
Cyaaauuu
-Liyra
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