The Hard Knock Life

Part 7

I couldn't sleep after he left. I cried for hours just wondering why this had to happen to me. I felt disgusting. Like it was all my fault. If I had just said hello, he would have left me alone. I couldn't tell this to anyone; not even Eli, and I know he would kill him for that, but I just couldn't tell anyone. They wouldn't be able to help me. What was done was done and there's no going back. I would have to act like nothing happened and be normal.

I began to plan my escape plan again. It would happen after the party because I didn't want anyone to be suspicious as to why I didn't show up and then go looking for me. The best time to do it was when nobody expected it. Like everyone going home to bed and me going to Canada. I set a reminder in my phone to call Celia later that day and set things up.

Today was the day of Lea's party. I knew I had to get it together before Aiden realized something was wrong. I checked the time on my phone.

9:06 am.

I figured I could catch some sleep before I officially started my day. I was finally ready to knock out.

•••

I woke up later at 12:20-ish and checked my phone for calls. Aiden called.

Hey, you called? I texted him.

I got out of my bed and went into the washroom to brush my teeth and shower, but before leaving my room, I checked my calendar at my door for when my period was suppose to come. Today.

Ugh!

When I finished, he texted me back:

You still on board for this party?

Uuuh yea why?

Just making sure

Wanna meet up in thirty?

Where?

River

Okaay

•••

"Why so early?" I said, when I saw him, later that day.

We reached the river at the same time.

"Am I not allowed to spend time with my best friend?"

"No."

"Well that sucks cause here we are."

"I don't understand why we have to be here so early." I mumbled. "I could've been doing some more important stuff."

"Like what?"

"Like...getting myself together like for the party and stuff..."

And recuperating from last night, I thought.

I really didn't want to be with Aiden at that moment. What I wanted to do was lay in my bed all day in a ball and cry, asking myself why me.

"Well, I wanna spend as much time with you as possible before we die..."

I looked at him and said, "what are you talking about?"

"We're all gonna die eventually. It may be tomorrow.....maybe in a couple seconds."

Jesus, take me now, I thought.

"Is this because of yesterday?" I asked, playing with the pebbles in front of me.

"Yea."

I didn't say anything in response to that. There was an awkward silence for a while before he said something again and I could tell it was hard for him to get out.