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by Rudemgc

Michael

I just continued laying in bed. I heard everyone downstairs talking. But couldn't understand what they were saying. I smell food also. But i lost my appetite again. I don't want to eat. I was so close to my goal too. I've been getting so much better with everything. I was 2 Days clean. That's gonna change. I've been eating at least 2 meals a day. Never mind now. A knock at my bedroom door interupted my thoughts

"Michael?" It's Ashton.

"Come in" I said. He came in and gave me a sad smile.

"Hey i made food. Come on downstairs" he said and I furrowed my eyebrows

"Are you actually serious?" I asked and he sighed and sat on my bed next to me

"C'mon mike your so close to your weight goal and forget Luke. Don't let him know that your upset. You gotta go downstairs and be the better person" Ashton said and I rolled my eyes and went towards the door with Ashton behind me

To say eating dinner was awkward was an understatement. I sat between ashton and Calum while Brittany sat across from me and Luke across from calum. I didn't make eye contact with anyone though. I didn't even talk. I could feel Luke look at me at times. I just poked my food with the fork.

"So uh how's everything been over here?" Luke asked. It's been rainbows and unicorns luke! asshole.

"It's been pretty uh busy" ashton said.

"Yea it's been rough" Calum said then everyone looked at me. I looked up at ashton

"Oh it's been just peachy" I said sarcastically. I heard Brittany slightly chuckle.

"What's so funny bitch?" I asked while glaring at her. She just glared back at me

"Michael! What the hell?!" Luke snapped and I turned to look at him

"Piss off Luke" I said while turning my attention back to the food that's been uneaten

"What is your problem?!" He spat and i chuckled and shook my head

"My problem? Do you really want to know what's been going on here for the past 5 months?" I asked while standing up and making the chair fall back.

"I dont know! Because I've been in the hospital more than I've been with my best friends!" I yelled and ashton and calum kinda just looked away. But it looked like the color drained from Lukes face.

"Wh--"

"Many reasons! One time I was jumped in a alley way. I fainted like 3 times because I never ate!" I snapped while breathing heavy. It felt good to get this off my chest. I wasn't done yet

"Mic--"

"Then I had to go see a therapist Luke! Just to help them get all my weight back! I weighed 109 pounds luke! But what do you care.. you come home smiling and happy with some slut. While we've all been through hell!" I snapped. Luke just looked down and Brittany scoffed

"Don't called her a slut michael i love her!" Luke said he raised his voice a little. I scoffed and laughed

"You don't love her you stupid ass" I said while walking towards the stairs.

"Well I never loved you! You were just a phase. I didn't love you and I still don't love you and never will love you" Luke spat harshly and i stopped. It felt like what was left of my heart crumpled.

"Good" i said weakly and made my way upstairs

Dear Luke

You never loved me..

- Michael

A/N: does anyone even like this story?