Dear Luke ; muke

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May be triggering

Also long chapter.

Luke woke up a few hours later. It was 2:00 AM. He looked around and saw the room was dark but he could still see Michael cause the hospital hall lights were dim. He creeped out of the bed and made his way to michaels bed and sat down in the chair next to him.

It was silent for a few minutes

"I don't know if you can hear me, they say ya know when someone is in a coma and somebody is talking to them they can hear everything" Luke started

"And I honestly don't know what's gonna happen. I'm pretty sure you'll wake up. But I just wanna tell you something.. the night that I tried to kill myself I woke and heard you giggling downstairs and I planned everything. I knew that night it was gonna be my last"

"But when i walked downstairs feeling basically like death. I saw you and it felt like I was alive again. I was happy. I wanted to make sure to spend that whole day with you. But then If I would have done that then it would have been harder on you when I was gone" Luke started silently crying

"That's why I was so mean to you"

Flashback

"Good morning babe" Michael said while kissing his beautiful boyfriend on the cheek. But Luke frowned suddenly realizing this is gonna be bad

"Michael" Luke said quietly

"Ashton and Calum are out. I think they are at the mini mart getting food. They're gonna have a movie marathon or some shit later"

"Michael" Luke said a little louder

"Maybe we can go on a date. We should before we have to go on tour again. Once we start touring we will be b--"

"MICHAEL" Luke shouted causing Michael to flinch and stop talking.

"Sorry" Michael said while looking down and blushing. Oh my god Luke did not wanna do this...

"Michael look I think we should break up" Luke said sternly. Michaels eyes widened and he looked up

"Wait what?"

"Us. It's over!" Luke said trying to sound harsh. But he really didn't

"Why?" Michael asked feeling his eyes start to water and a lump forming in his throat.

"Because I don't love you anymore!" Luke snapped and Michael just felt his heart completely tear apart. His whole chest was aching. He ran upstairs and slammed the door shut letting out loud sobs.

Luke had grabbed his keys and started crying once he was outside the house.

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"I'm so sorry. God I'm so so so sorry. I didn't mean it at all. I wish I wouldn't have even tried to kill myself. None of this wouldn't have happened. I wouldn't have met that stupid bitch. You wouldn't have became all depressed and nearly at the point of death" Luke said while sobbing softly

"Or maybe if I was gone this wouldn't have happened... I don't even know anymore. Why did you have to save me?"

Flashback

It was around 2:30 in the morning and Luke was getting ready to be gone. He had everything prepared. He set the letter down under the keyboard of his computer. It was slightly peaking out.

He walked out of his room and walked to Michaels. He slightly opened the door and sneaked in to where the boy who was peacefully sleeping on the bed. Luke leaned over Michael and kissed his cheek