Homin Pride drabbles

#11

3rd Person's P.O.V: 

Love was never in the cards for a person like Changmin, it was just never a variable in his equation of life. He had never understood his fellow man or woman and maybe that was his problem? 

His dad never helped  either, it was messed up actually... hearing this from his father, words he shouldn't hear, it hurt, his father would tell him that he would never be loved properly. That it is cuz he likes men that he would never find love and that he was doomed to end up alone and no one would care, it hurt him a lot. 

He was not the same caring man after his parents separated. He got stuck with his father and his sisters went with their mom, it hurt him but he understood. He had to understand and be okay with the choice that is made for him.

He grew up trying to be the man his father expected him to be and he tried to be the masculine type or the man's man. He tried to prove himself worth of his father's praise and his mother abandon him... so he had already lost one parent's love and who couldn't bare his father abandoning him too.

Everyone he got close to left him, it made him become distant and cold towards others.

When he finally left for College, he was still that same introvert and cynical guy, nothing changed, that is how he will live for the rest of his life.

He never would be loved and he came to a begrudging peace with that reality.

Until, a loud mouth and overly zealous man by the name of Jung Yunho. He is the soccer and campus star... everyone loves him and had nothing but appraisal and cheers for him and Changmin never understood that.

He was no god... he didn't believe in one but the fact alone is, people glorified this mere mortal man. He is nothing more than that and yet!

People still kept treating Jung in such manners.

Him and the star had a class together, Yunho is his Senior by one year, even with the two year difference, he graduated early as he skipped a grade cuz of how smart he is.

They shared a philosophy class and the man sat right next to him as everyone around were too star struck or foolish and wanting the older man's attention and Changmin didn't even acknowledged him.

The man tried countless times to befriend him and to get his attention... but he refuse to give in. They did talk and have small conversations here and there but he refused to think anything further, all the while Yunho wanted to make Changmin his.

Yunho could tell,from the moment he looked into those big innocent doe eyes, it was the emptiness and scared look. Even if he seemed, on the outside, uncaring and guarded.

His eyes gave him away, in that moment Yunho promised to make Changmin smile and laugh. That in his presences he would feel loved and wanted, he wanted show Changmin the world for not what it is... but what it could be.

He never stopped, even when the younger man yelled and said hurtful things to him. He could tell the reality of it all and made sure that he would never be alone again.

"Hyung,what would I do without you?" Changmin tried to hide his feverish red face as the older man kissed him.

"I love you Changmin." He promised a life time of happiness and love.

"I love you too Yunho." Changmin never thought he would find love or happiness.

Even now he is still the same but Yunho gave him the greatest gift... that was self  love and acceptance. For so long he struggled with his own identity and mental state and he tried to pretend he was untouchable.

But Yunho taught him that it is okay not to be okay and that he could let go of all the resentment and hate that grew in his heart. That he needed to find his own happiness and love and to not expect it from people that never knew how to find that in themselves... that Changmin was never the problem.

Yunho loves him and he loves the kind soul that picked him up from his spiral, it was hard at the beginning but kindness and compassion goes a long way.

Their friends and Yunho's family congratulated the young couple on getting engaged. They had come so far in the last seven years but they knew that a love like this is special and they refuse to allow that to slip through their fingers.

For Yunho is his only exception to his previous plans of being lonely for eternity. Now he knew that Yunho would be there with him and that even though life is not perfect, it is the time and love they spent together is what makes everything worth the fights and risk.

-The End