Homin Pride drabbles

#17

3rd Person's P.O.V: 

He put on a strong front, for the both of them, he had to do it and his heart knew this all along but he still took the road. He knew this was not a relationship he should pursue or think of it. They would never ever end up together but he would still do anything for Jung Yunho.

"Will you let me walk you home?" He did not want the man to go alone, it is dark out already. 

"Min, you always do." He chuckles at the other man. 

"I just want to make sure you don't have plans or have somebody else." Changmin tries to hide his tomato red face by looking at the ground of the practice room. 

"I spend the majority of my time with you and I like it." The older man is brave. 

Yunho, he felt feelings that are more then friendly feelings for his member but he would never do anything about it. He couldn't, it would cost them their dreams that work so hard to achieve and everything they have been through would be in vain. He could not destroy Changmin's dreams or his own and no matter how much he wants to take that leap, it would be irrational. 

"Hyung, I love you." Changmin says that a lot but Yunho would just brush it off as nothing more than being kind and loving. 

But he knew the other man's feelings but he couldn't afford to jeopardize anything.

"I love you too Min-ah!" He smiles warmly to the man, no longer a boy. 

They are alone in the practice room of SM and they stayed late to work more on their choreography for TCOL and they both are covered in sweet and exhaustion but Changmin refuses to let Yunho go gently into the good night. 

"I love you!" He said again but the older man did not react. 

"Changmin..." Yunho does not know how to reply to his words. 

"I am not some kid anymore and I refuse to be past over... I know you think you are saving us both but... I don't care! You can't always try to fix things or make things perfect hyung." Changmin had enough. 

"Leave it alone!" The older man did not want to deal with this right now. 

"Why!" He did not understand how his gentle and understanding hyung could be so cold and cruel with his feelings and confession. 

"Changmin... you know as well as I do." He did but threw caution to the wind. 

"You know my feelings and heart, yet, you push it aside and think nothing more and I know your heart!" Changmin still rooted to the spot of the middle of the room and Yunho not dare meeting his eyes in the mirrors of the room. 

"I do! It kills me that we can't be anything more than what we are now but if I can still have you this way. If it means still being with each other, I am fine with just this and I love you. Never forget that Min, you will always ave a part of me!" Yunho still looking away.

"You can turn a blind eye but I can't! You are so close but so far away and I ache and burn with a desire and passion. I don't care about the money or fame, it was never about that and I can live without it... but Yunho. I can't let you go and watch you with someone else." Changmin tries to hold back his tongue from implicating him more. 

His feelings are made known, it has always been known where his affections and heart melt any cold heart, it is cheesy but he didn't care, life is too short to be anything but happy. 

"Changmin, don't say words that you can never take back. I can pretend that you didn't say anything... please!" Yunho chocked out these razor blade words with difficulty but it is for the best. 

Changmin did not want to fight, it would ruin the mood even more than he already has. 

"I love you and I am sorry... let's forget it." He tries to smile but his eyes tell a different story all together. 

They leave as though nothing happened but their hearts felt the weight of their scene but they refuse to acknowledge it. They would never do anything but pretend. 

-The End