Homin Pride drabbles

#22

"A long car ride home with someone you love, 

can sometimes heal you in ways

you can't imagine."

-R.M Drake

3rd Person's P.O.V: 

The silence of the night filled the long car ride, it is not awkward or aggressive, it is peaceful. This felt right.It felt like drinking a cold glass of water on a warm day, it is refreshing and Yunho just allowed this moment to capture him. 

This gave him a warm feeling in his chest that he has not felt in awhile, life has become to much of an inconvenience and cruel to a gentle soul like him. He has not felt happiness nor sorrow, it is a mind numbing out of body experience, it is like he is not even there... but he is! 

Changmin grabs his hand and as the younger man's other hand is caressing the steering wheel. Yunho does not look away from the view of the starry sky, it takes his breathe away and leaves him feeling melancholy. He does not know why he is in such a gloomy state? 

Why his heart hurts? 

Why he can barely get up? 

What time it is?

Or the day of the week it is! 

Sometimes he forgets the sound of his own voice and all he can remember is the sound of glass shattering... his mind is no place one should ever wonder. His heart is turning to stone and he wonders if he will make it through the day, it is starting to become a hassle. 

The other man notices the shift in the air and he can feel everything that the older man feels and it breaks his heart! He knows why the older man is awake at night and how he tries to suppress his sobs so he could sleep.

His heart mourns for the man he loves.

Yunho takes a deep breathe and tries to leave such silly emotions in the past but his mind and heart are not willing to move on from the past. It is crippling and a burden but he carries that weight, it crushes him, leaving him to feel like he is at the bottom of the ocean floor and there is no way out! 

He wants to live in the here and the now! 

He wants to feel alive! 

He wants to live! 

Why is it so hard? 

"I love you... I have loved you from the moment I met you and to now, it is like I can barely function anymore. But my heart kick starts at the sound of your honey suckle laughter, it is your summer morning smiles, it is the way your love reminds me of home. I am grateful for the moments we spend in your happiness and the days you don't want to smile but you do, it is everything. These words resonate in my heart and soul and I know these words will not do much... but they mean the world." 

Changmin will remind him from when daylight breaks to the night falls upon them, he will remind Yunho what is in his own heart. He will never fully understand the maze in the older man's mind but he wants to. 

He will never let the older man fall.

Yunho allows his words to sink in, it is the way Changmin keeps him above shore and he feels apologetic and remorseful. But he always reminds him that they are a tem, he will never have to face such demons on his own again, it is nights like this he wishes he could smile without feeling guilty or regretful.

He is trying to remember what it is like to feel something other than the car battery humming in his heart, it is starting to become to noisy. But Changmin never allows him to sulk for long, his calming words and forgiving touches remind him what it is like to be human again.

They drive home and this night feels less cold than others, it washes over him in relief and just being next to Changmin reminds him, he will not have to suffer behind closed doors anymore. 

-The End