Homin Pride drabbles

#7

A/N: Sorry was super busy yesterday and could not update... but here it is enjoy!

3rd Person's P.O.V: 

The love he felt for the older man, it is one that entails sweet melody of pain and honey suckle sweet love. They shared the same heart, it beat the same tempo and rythm and this overwhelming and heart pounding love gave them that rush and adrenaline. 

Yet, Changmin feared that he is inadequet to stand next to a man like Yunho, it is scary to be standing on the edge of a knife, being with Yunho is a scary ride, it is the fact that the older man is a character straight from a fairy tale and he felt like he is not worthy. He does not carry the same grace and etiquette, it is the lack of esteem and confidence he bares himself and he does not go gently on himself. 

"Don't think so lowly of yourself." Yunho held him in his embrace under the shade that provides protection from the beating sun. 

"I will never be enough Yunho... everyone knows it!" Changmin held those words and bruising stares in his memory. 

"I don't want perfection Changdol... I only ask for your trust and love. I never expect anything, love requires one to be selfless and unconditional." The younger man still looking at the small patches of green grass and the dirt that surrounds that little islands. 

"You deserve the best Yun... I know you say those words but who are we kidding! I know and you know that in time you will resent me and I wouldn't blame you and... you will leave too." He would want a family and the perfect cookie cutter vanilla life. Something Changmin could never give him, it hurt, the sever trepidation of  being another regret... being a time to waste until the older man found a women to love and not a man. 

"In another lifetime, I would never change my mind....I would do it again, a thousand time. My eyes would only look for you! My heart will only yearn for you! I have thought over and all the paths and twist and turns and every possible ending... all of them involved you." Yunho held the man closer to him... their breathe even in sync. 

"Would love be enough?" Changmin refused to meet the man's eyes. 

"You sell me short Shim." The man laughs. 

"I could have gone back to her or gone after anyone else, it would have been simple. But the thing is... I would never be happy or in love. I would only be wishing that they are you and that is no way to live! My dream is you Changmin and I am fine without everything else... as long as you are by my side and nothing more." Yunho hooks his index finger under the younger males sharp jaw line. 

Changmin now facing the slightly smaller man and the love and adoration that burns in Yunho's eyes, it takes his breathe away and all he wants to do is capture this moment forever. 

"Promise to never leave." Yunho begs. 

"You have my heart hyung, it has always belonged to you." Changmin tried to keep his tears from fleeing. 

"That is all I need." He pulls his lover into a kiss of promises and trust. 

Yunho never wondered what life was like before and never dreams to knows what it is life after Changmin. He is content with this life and everything it has to offer and the best thing it does have is Shim Changmin and that seemed perfect. 

He prayed to the sky for someone to light up his darken sky line and he found that within the younger man. Love comes in different forms and it came to him in the form of a lanky, opinionated, sweet, fierce, loyal, and dorky man and he thought this is all he needs. 

-The End