A Chance Meeting | Chris Evans

Chapter 12

10.24am
Robbie🤪
Hi Becs. Are you about?

Becs📚
Yes, hi

Robbie🤪
Are you  busy right now?

Becs📚
No,  just sitting in my pjs drinking coffee

Robbie🤪
I wanted to talk to you about something
And please don't be mad deleted

Becs📚
Sounds serious,  what's up?

Robbie🤪
I need to tell you something. Robbie isn't my real name

Becs📚
What?!

Robbie🤪
Well, it is my name, but it's my  middle name

Becs📚
What's your actual name then?

Robbie🤪
Chris Evans deleted
It's Chris

Becs📚
Chris?  So why did you pretend it was Robbie?

Robbie🤪
Because I'm fucking stupid deleted
Please let me explain

Becs📚
Go on then

Robbie🤪
I was a bit apprehensive about the whole online dating thing, so  when my friends set the  profile up  for me,  they used my middle name and I just kind of carried on using it.
I wish I could tell  you more deleted

Becs📚
Your friends set your profile up?

Robbie🤪
Yes. I had no idea that they were doing it

Becs📚
That's kind of funny

Robbie🤪
Why?

Becs📚
Because my friends set  mine  up.

Robbie🤪
Really?
You're wonderful,  why would anyone think that you need help with dating? deleted

Becs📚
Yeah,  they figured that it would be a good way for me to get out and meet people, because I practically knew no one when I came to America.

Robbie🤪
And has it worked?
God,  I hope you didn't meet someone deleted

Becs📚
Not really, to be honest most of the guys that I've connected with on here seem to be complete losers (present company excepted). Most seem to want to use it as a way of hooking up.

Becs📚
So why did your friends do it?

Robbie🤪
Because I wouldn't have gotten in touch with you myself deleted
They thought that I needed a little help

Becs📚
With meeting women?

Robbie🤪
With you deleted
I guess.

Becs📚
And do you need help? Because I know that I've only been messaging you a couple of weeks, but you seem funny, and your profile pics look cute, so what's wrong with you? Do you have some horrible...

Robbie🤪
....?

Becs📚
Just trying to think of something bad enough. I know - you're a serial  killer?  Or you have some horrible disease that gives you weeks to  live?

Robbie🤪
Erm no, not a serial killer or terminally  ill

Becs
I'm out of ideas then

Robbie🤪
It's just...I get anxious if I like someone, and everything gets all messed up in my head
Please don't think less of me deleted

Becs📚
Well we all get a bit anxious sometimes

Robbie🤪
This is more than a bit anxious, sometimes it's like I'm fucking losing my mind deleted

Becs📚
And if it causes a problem, you know that there are lots of really good anxiety meds out there now

Robbie🤪
I know,  I take them deleted

Becs📚
And you shouldn't feel  bad about needing them - if you had a physical  illness then you'd take meds for that, wouldn't you? Mental health issues should be no different. There's too  much stigma about it.

Robbie🤪
Ummmmm.....

Becs📚
Oh God, I'm sorry. That's so  rude of me to lecture you  like that with no idea of what your situation is. It's just a bugbear of mine.

Robbie🤪
Well, no one's ever reacted like that before 😳

Becs📚
Sorry, sorry, sorry.

Robbie🤪
Most people freak out if I  mention anxiety...

Becs📚
I've studied it a bit - psychology degree

Robbie🤪
Wow. That'd explain it.  That's really  impressive. You  must be really smart.

Becs📚
Thanks ☺️ but don't be too impressed - you don't need to be that smart

Robbie🤪
I don't generally tell people this,  but I do take anxiety meds

Becs📚
And do they help?

Robbie🤪
Yeah, usually. Sometimes if I've got a really stressful situation I need to take a Xanax as well.

Robbie🤪
I've never admitted that to anyone outside of my family and my best friends

Becs📚
Well,  it's nothing to be ashamed of. But thanks  for trusting me with it.

Robbie🤪
You're welcome. And I really  am sorry for not telling you what my real name was at the beginning.

Becs📚
That's okay, Chris (that might take a little getting used to)

Chris 🤪
I like hearing you say it deleted
I  wish I could tell you the rest deleted
😁

Becs📚 changed Robbie🤪 to Chris 🤪 in contacts

Chris 🤪
I've got to go back to work now - break's over. Have a good day

Becs📚
You  never did tell  me what job you do

Chris 🤪
I don't think deleted
I can't deleted
Sorry, can't talk  any more. I'll try to  message you at lunchtime if I get the chance. Bye

Becs📚
Okay  bye