Dean's Diary - (Destiel) (BoyXBoy)

1st-January

(A/N everything that you read in chapters marked with a date -which will be most- are straight out of Dean's Diary, words in italic are Cas's thoughts)

Dear Journal...

That sounds stupid...

Dear Dean...

God no...

Dear...oh fuck it.

Dear Diary.

It's New Year's Eve and I celebrated with Cas, Sam and Gabe, we're like a group now I guess.

We all sat on my impala drinking beer and waiting for midnight to strike, we had bought some fire works so we let them off too. They were so loud and I don't think Cas or Gabe had ever really seen them...that or they just really like fire works, they were mesmerised!

I remember this!

After we set off the fire works we all sat around and thanked each other for a great year. We're lucky enough not to be faced with a lot of jobs lately, just two or three a month, sometimes four if we're unlucky. It's because of this we have a lot more free time. We've become total dorks. We hang out like friends do, go out for dinner, to the beach, the park. We even play board games...what's become of the world.

I guess it's not too bad though, Cas and Gabe are around a lot more which is actually pretty cool.

Everyone got totally hammered. Sam and Gabe fell asleep in the back seat of the impala, Gabe laying on Sam's chest and Sam has his hand laying on Gabe's back. The shit they do when they're drunk.

I don't remember that happening..

Cas was completely smashed

Ahh...that's why

but he didn't want to sleep so we sat in the front of the car talking, and the convo went a little like this.

"Dean...you're really pretty"

"Cas...you're drunk"

"Am not! Even if I was you'd still be pretty"

"Cas you need to sleep"

"No you need to sleep!"

"Cas.."

"Dean.." He got really close to me but he was drunk so I didn't care I just laughed a little at him, he was really cute drunk.

Wait what...Dean thinks I'm a cute drunk?

"Dean" he whispered my name and I just remember looking into his eyes which were so blue and beautiful. And then he kissed me. It was just a peck, but it lasted a good few seconds.

What?!

My eyes had apparently fluttered shut and so had his before he leaned back and fell asleep. I decided to do the same, but that stupid smirk wouldn't leave my face.

I can't believe I was so stupid! How could he not tell me I did that! And why was Dean smirking?