Don't look at them
You know it'll break your heart
It's not real it's fake
But I shouldn't have lied to you
You know I like you
And I suck at hiding it
But for once I can't support you
I can't watch you
I have to come first
He doesn't know I like him
That's dumb to expose yourself
Well you did in front of who knows how many people
But why stop
It's not like he'll see this
I know you care
You've shown me
And I care about you
But I need to put me first
It's not good for me emotionally
It'll suck me dry
And might hurt you too
Who am I kidding?
You say you care
But I'm terrified you don't
If I turned away...
You wouldn't notice
I'm not going to be there
For once,
I need to support me
I need to hold my emotions
All I ever want to do
Is help
And support
And care
But I always do that for others
Not myself
So I can't watch you
But deep down I'll cheer you on
I just can't watch
As my emotions get torn
Please know it's nothing against you
You're amazing
And wonderful and true
But I won't be stading to the side
To support you 100% of the time
However I'll cheer for you loudly
And call for you proudly,
But let it be me first
It's probably better if I just stay away
I'm going to hurt my brain
I guess I shouldn't hurt me
I'm sorry,
But I need to put me first
