I don't like to trust
I've been damaged like glass
And cut by my own shards
Just when I think it's good enough
I get pushed back down
Down with my face in the lake
Drowning in what I thought was love
So I don't want to be held again
Don't wrap your arms around me
Don't tell me that you love me
I won't believe it
I've been told that lie before
With tongues of silvers
That cut like swords
You cannot fathom a broken mirror
Trying to fix itself
So I continue to shatter more and more
Believing that I'm crazy
That there's something wrong with me
When I black out
Who knows what I'll say
Or what I'll do
I don't want to hurt you
But it's out of my hands
They hurt me so bad
That I want to fight
But I'm fighting my friends
So why did I say I was sorry
Why did I go back for more
Now I'm a mess of apologies
And I'm scattered all over the floor
But don't sweep me up
Don't say you can fix me
I'm irredeemable
Then I hear that clock chime
It rings in my ear
I beg for it to stop
I just want it to stop
PLEASE STOP
I SAID I WAS SORRY
But they see me as crazy
Or attention seeking
And I can't convey my words
Unless it becomes poetry
I don't want to trust you
Or anyone again
I'm not wanting the chaos to ensue
Inside my head
So I'm going to bed
And praying for the best
That someone can love me
Even though I'm an utter mess
