Extinguished (a post mockingjay story)

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I still have last nights confrontation with Peeta on my mind. The face he mad when we saw my cuts. The way his blue eyes became sad but filled with some emotion I can't put my finger on. Maybe love? " No Katniss Peeta doesn't love you are you joking you killed his whole family the look he gave you was pitted" the little voice in my head says. The meow of that old scruffy cat brings me from my mental chat. So I go downstairs and fix a half of plate of eggs and eat about a fourth of that and give the rest to Buttercup and go and sit in front on an empty fireplace. I get up on my knees and crawl over to the draw in the kitchen where I keep my knives . After I gab one I retake my seat in front of the fireplace. I look at the list of names on my wrist. A good portion of them are still visible. Do I look at the top of my thigh and realize that it has nothing on it. So In big letters I right the words capitol mutt. Yes that what I am a mutt just like Peeta said. I'm a mutt created by the capitol to kill all the people that ever learn to love me. I don't even bother to rap my cuts I just sit there in a pool of my own blood. "Katniss open the door" I know that voice it's the same one full of worry that I heard heard last night. "Why Peeta? Why should I?" I yell back so he hears me. "Come on sweetheart we just need to talk to you" but this time it's not Peeta it's Haymitch He doesn't sound like his usual self he sounds kind and worried. which can only mean one thing Petea has told him it's about my cutting. "Just go away" I yell again then I hear footsteps walking down the stairs. Then all of a sudden my door is being kick down. When Haymitch and Peeta see me they are taken A back. " Great I will add fixing the door onto the list of things I'll never do" I say in a raspy voice "Now get the hell out of my house" " Katniss we want to help you" says Peeta "Help me I'm Beyond the help that any one can give" "Sweetheart the only reason we're here is so we can help you because we care about yo-" "care about me" I say cutting Haymitch off " if anyone was left to care about me I wouldn't be in this state in the first place,So just please go so I can off my self in the privacy of my own home" "No Katniss I won't just stand here and let you kill yourself do you honestly think that we wouldn't care if you died we would be heartbroken" Peeta says as him and Haymitch walk closer to me " Don't get too close might just slip my throat. Wanna watch?" Everyone is watching me like I'm crazy now "then get out. Just face it there's nothing left for me and my mother is in district 4 with a different life now Prim is gone all of our friends are gone there is nothing left for me so just let me let go" as I say this I reach in the puddle of blood and write the words I always did love you on the floor in front of me. Then I look up at the and stab myself in the stomach with my knife.

Sorry for the short chapter I will try to make the next one longer but I can't make any promises cuz I just go with the flow I don't plan out a plot when I write and I'm sry in the story is really bad but it will get better thx for reading tho ❤️❤️❤️