Extinguished (a post mockingjay story)

I love you

There months later

The past three months have been the best i have had in a while everyday I go over to Peeta's house and we hangout sometimes we will go to the meadow or hunting and sometimes we just walk around town but most of the time we just stay home because I'd rather just sit here and be with Peeta all day. We don't kiss or anything tho most of the time we just sit and talk. Ever since the kiss we had after the hanging tree accident we have acted like it never happened. Peeta acts as if we are best friends but I know he wish we were more but I don't know if I want more I mean I still don't know how I feel about him yet. I mean months ago when I said and did stuff I didn't mean my mind wasn't in a stable place so I'm not going to try to go any further then friends until I know where I stand. So as I get ready to go over to Peeta's house I think to myself where do I stand and everyday I give myself the same answer I don't know. As I walk out the door I think to myself how lucky I am to have
Him in my life. I mean he could have chosen to not have anything to do with me but here we are. When I get too Peeta's I knock on the door but no one answers the lights are on so I knock again. That's when I hear a loud crash so I open the door and I see Peeta standing in the kitchen holding on to the back of the chair. He must be having a flash back "Get out of here Katniss!" He says threw gritted teeth "Peeta it's ok just hold on" I say closing the door "get out of here you stupid mutt"he says still gripping the back of the chair "listen to me Peeta stay with me" and then I kiss him at first he just stands there while I kiss him but eventually he kisses back deepening the kiss and in this moment I know the answer to the my question. I do I love Peeta and to be truthful I think I always did I was just to scared to let myself realize it. When he brakes away he look at me with a look of guilt on his face "I'm Ss-sorry" he says with tears running down his face " shh shh Peeta it's ok it's ok nothing happened there's nothing to be sorry for" I say in a soft voice. He starts to sob as he slowly lowers himself on to the floor. As he gradually lowers him self I pull him to me and cradle his head on my chest "it's ok. It's ok it wasn't real" I say trying to clam him. "Did I hurt you?" He says but by then end of his question he is sobbing again. " No no you didn't Peeta you would never hurt me" I say as I began slowly rubbing circles on his back and that when I notice the bleeding wound on Peeta's hand just as I'm about to ask he mutters something so quiet I almost didn't hear it "stay with me?" I look at the broken boy in my lap and reply " always. We sit there for an half an hour just in each other's arms but finally we get up and go to the living room. After I sit Peeta down on the couch I go make him some tea. While I'm waiting on the tea to boil I see what made that loud crash from earlier. It was the glass door on a cabinet and that explains why Peeta has that huge gash on his hand because he mush have punched the glass door. So when the tea is ready I bring the first aid kit with me. I hand him his tea and give him a small smile he returns one just as small but it it forced. When he takes a sip of his teas he looks at me funny while I'm fixing up his hand.

"You ok?" I ask concerned
"Yea it's just you....remembered" he says in awe. "What did I remember" "The tea... you remembered I don't t take sugar in my tea" he says looking at the cup "of course I remembered" I give him the smallest of smiles and to much of my surprise he returns in. As we sit there and sip our tea and me trying to bandage Peeta's cut we talk about random stuff from cakes to hunting. When I look up at the clock I realize that it's 9:39 I guess time really does fly. As I get up a bid Peeta goodbye something grabs my hand " you know kat you can stay in the spare room I have if you want to" did he really just ask me to ask me to stay the night I thought he would never do that again. "I mean if you don't mind" I say sheepishly and with that we walk up stairs he shows me to my room and we part ways for the night.

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" it's the things we love most mrs Everdeen that destroy us" I hear echoing through the black room I'm currently standing in all of a sudden I see a person standing with me in the room. As I walk towards the figure I realize that they're sitting not standing. After I close in another 20 yards on the figure I see who it is Prim. I sprint for her but when i get about three feet away President snow stands right in the way of me getting to my sister. " now mrs Everdeen lets make this quick because I have important matters to attend to you can either kill your sister or I can the choice is yours" he say as he laughs." you're not real this isn't real and I will not kill my sister real or not" i look at Prim and she is crying now I look at President snow and he looks at me and shrugged his shoulders as he pulls out a gun and shoots her. "Her blood is on your hands"say a familiar voice I haven't heard for the longest when I turn around I see it's none other than my father just then I look down at my hands and they are covered in blood. "No no no no no no"I hear another voice coming from behind me it's from my mother she is kneeling beside Primm's body crying as I'm walking over to my mother she gets up and pushes me as I'm falling towards the ground everything goes black.
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When I wake up I'm sweaty and crying I look at the Time it's 1:00 am so I get up and go into Peeta's room he awake and drawing in his sketchbook  I go over and climb in his bed and lay down he puts his arm around me and sighs
"I love you" I whisper as I kiss him when we break away for breath he replies "I love you too kat the truth is I never stoped" and with that we both fall asleep with the thought of one another.

Authors note

OK so I know this chapter is like trash and all me y'all were hoping for something better and I really can't give it to you because I have writers block as I said last time I'm not gonna be able to shake this I will try my best to make the next chapter better but I'm also working on another story so maybe if I just like to get short break from this story and write a different one then maybe It will just go away hopefully and I'm sorry again I love y'all thank you please vote and tell ur friends ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💍