Extinguished (a post mockingjay story)

Her

**this whole chapter will be in Peeta's POV but it won't pick up where Katniss left off it will be from the night when he came to her house and if this chapter doesn't get too where last chapter was I will do it next enjoy 😊❤️***

•Peeta's POV•

As I Lay bed I can't get my mind off the once healthy Katniss Everdeen. I can't stop thinking about how she was so thin you could actually see her check bones. I get up to open my window because it's hot in my room and that's when I notice that Katniss is not in her room.this my chance i can go over and check on her maybe even tell her how I feel. Ever since I planted the flowers along the side of Katniss's house I can't stop thinking about her the way that her cheekbones were more prominent her eyelashes her clouded grey seam eyes. I think, no I'm sure  I still am in love with her. I just want to tell her how I feel I would even be ok with just being friends I cannot go without her being in my life and that's all I know. So I go down stairs and put on shoes on and walk over to her house and knock on the door. The door opens quickly and that when I see Katniss's skin it has hundreds of cuts on it. Not just any cuts though cuts that look like words some names. I begin to read the words and names on her arms and upper thighs and lower legs. Prim,Rue,Finnick,Boggs,Clove,Dad,Cato,district twelve but the three words that struck me the most are Peeta and capitol mutt. The only thing that these names have in common are that they are all dead but then why is my name on there? I'm not dead. "What do you want Peeta it's three in the morning" I just can't take my eyes away from her I finally look her straight in the eyes they are filled with pain and sorrow. "Katniss! What did you do to your self" I say as I grab her arm. She scowls at me in repose " I gave myself some tattoos what the hell do you think" she half yells at me as she yanks her arm from my grasp. "Why are you even here!?" "I wanted to talk to you but I that is beside the point are you serious cutting"   "Peeta this is all some dream just like Prim being dead" she says rolling her eyes but I can tell that her comment hit her a little hard. "Peet's just go away this is my life now"she say she is trembling now "Just please let me let go" and she slams the door on my face. My heart is telling me to go in her house and help her become her old self but my mind is the reason I  leave. After I get home I go to the kitchen and grab the little bottle of liquor I bought a few weeks ago and climb thew the short ladder to my roof and sit. As I drink my liquor I think maybe my life will never go back to normal or anything remotely close to it. I don't know how long I sat there just drinking like I was well Haymitch but by the time I was finished the sun was just about to rise. As I climb back down stairs someone knocks at the door. "Katniss?" I say in a whisper as I run to get the door. "Wow boy you really are excited to see me" my face drops almost as soon as I see who it is. It's Haymitch. " What do you want" I say "I'm here to talk about the girl" I open the door wider and jester for him to come in as he takes a seat he begins. "Ok so we have a problem" hey says " Katniss has not come out of her house to but food or anything since greasy sae left and that was a while ago so I think we need to go over and make sure that she isn't starving herself to death" " Haymitch I went over there yesterday she..she" I can't even finish my sentence I'm so horrified by what I saw " Well spit it out boy" " she is hurting her self like as in cutting I went to see her yesterday and she opened the door and she had words written all over her" I say he just sits there perplexed so I continue " she has stuff written like Rue,Finnick,Boggs,and district 12 but the ones that were written the most were Capitol Mutt and my name" Haymitch's  expression has gone from speechless to the look a concerned father would give a daughter. With that he gets up and half sprints to Katniss's house. When he gets there he is out of breath that I have to knock while he try's to regain his ability to breath. "Katniss open the door"  I yell as a knock on the door. "Why should I Peeta" she yells back at me her voice is so different I wouldn't even think it was her if I didn't know this was her house. "Come on sweetheart we just need to talk to you" says a half bent over Haymitch. His tone is like the one a concerned father would give a daughter or maybe even one that you would here if someone was in fear but what is he afraid of. "Just go away" she yells at us. Haymitch stands up and and walks down the stairs "fine sweetheart two can play it that game wont open door I guess I'll just knock it down." By the time I realize what he is mumbling he is running up the stairs and busting open the door. When come in Katniss is sitting in a pool of her own blood. "Great I'll add fixing the door to the list of things I'll never do" "now get the hell out of my house" Her physical state is much where is that at when I saw her last you can actually see her bones now. She look more like a skeleton then a girl. The expression on her face looks like she's waging war in her own head. "Katniss we want to help you" i say in the most soothing voice I can manage. " help me I'm beyond the help that anyone can give" she starts off the sentence with a laugh but the laughing abruptly cuts off. God she really has gone insane. "Sweetheart The only reason we're here is so we can help you because we care about yo-" "YOU CARE ABOUT ME!" She yells cutting him off. her voice reeks in disbelief "if anyone was up to care about me I wouldn't be in the state in the first place, so just please go so I can off myself in the privacy of my own home" I can't believe her she thinks I'm really just gonna let her kill her self. " no Katniss I won't just stand here and let you kill yourself do you honestly think that we wouldn't care if you died we'd be heartbroken" I say while me and him and try to get closer to her. " don't get too close to much just let my throat...wanna watch?" When she says this I pull up short "then get out. Just face it there's nothing left for me my mother is in district 4 with a different life life now prim is gone all of our friends are gone there is nothing left for me just let me let go"as she says that she starts to play in the puddle of blood. Who is this mystery woman because I know it isn't my Katniss. After she gets done she takes the knife and stabs herself in the stomach with it. Just as the knife enters her stomach I rushed over to her to try to help her and that's when I realize the puddle of blood she was playing in spells a group of words and they say

I always did love you