My Sweet Devil - JENLISA

Chapter 26 : Fix

JENNIE'S POV 

Intense pain was felt when I moved my leg and woke up abruptly from my deep sleep. It took me a few minutes before I could open my eyes. It seemed like I was recovering from a hangover, well, it wasn't that different from what happened last night. I was so engrossed in my thoughts that I forgot that another person was lying next to me. I looked up and met the face of an angel.

What a beautiful creature. 

Shimmering grey hair gracefully fell on her well-defined face. Lisa had an unusual face. There weren't two like her. Sometimes I wonder if she ever thought of being a model, of being in the spotlight instead of being the discreet person who takes care of the whole background. It was undeniable that Lisa was a talented person. If there were more people like her, I'm willing to bet the world would be a much better place. I kept watching her sleep and found myself following her breathing rhythm. A silly smile appeared on my lips when I saw her mumbling alone in her sleep. However, my smile faded when the events of the previous day came to mind.

Why had her behavior changed? Was she jealous? This idea is completely stupid so forget it. You know, I thought I didn't like sex anymore yesterday night. Not that I didn't enjoy it, but there was something different. That innocence I found in her at first had disappeared. Yesterday, I saw no compassion in her eyes, it was almost as if I was just an object, a source of pleasure. You would say why I should care when I am the first to scream about wanting to experience new sensations and emotions. But I have every right to doubt, right? And doubt is something I may never have tested before. I mean, I never found myself questioning myself because in general, I'm sure of my choices and I've always had everything I wanted.  Was it possible that I could experience a disappointment? But I didn't know if I could handle the consequences. Ruby Jane, 23 years old, finds herself arguing internally in a bed in which she was naked with another person who was the cause of this reflection.

Yet there was one thing I haven't yet found answers to. I was endlessly attracted to this person as I had never been before. We were like two magnets. We were different but we always ended up finding each other. This is the first time in my life that I regret not having friends. I would have liked to have someone to talk to and share my feelings with. It's funny because all these desires are new to me. 

I'm really starting to get crazy talking to myself.  

Taeyang's words were looping through my head. As far as he is concerned, I am glad that we have reached this point and sometimes the best thing to do is to discuss it. 

Flashback 

"Thank you for this wonderful dinner. It's been a long time since I've eaten in a good Thai restaurant like this." I sincerely thanked him.

"Anything for you Jen." 

"Have a good night." I was about to go into my room when he stopped me by taking my hand.

"Wait. Can we talk? Please?" I sighed. The time had come for me to set the record straight. As soon as he saw me, I saw a glimmer of hope in his eyes but I felt awful to think that his wish could never be fulfilled.

"Listen, Jennie. I don't really know where to start, but you don't know how long I've been waiting to see you again. I still remember the day you left and I never forgot your words. I accepted that you were getting out of my life and I didn't run after you because I thought you were really not ready to start a serious relationship. Today, you have grown up and become a resplendent woman. I know it's a little crazy what I'm going to ask you, but can we start over? I promise to offer you everything even if you will tell me again that you already know how to get everything without my help. I just want you to know that I've never considered our relationship for fun. So... what do you think?"