𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚎/𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜

hurts so good

"When it hurts, but it hurts so good
Do you take it? Do you break it off?
When it hurts but it hurts so good
Can you say it? Can you say it?"

fillie

millie's p.o.v

i woke up to the sound of three loud knocks at my front door. i climb out of bed, pulling my sleep mask off my face and throwing it on my bed roughly.

who could it be at this hour?

i practically ran to the front door, unlocking the locks that kept the wooden door sealed shut from the outside world.

i put my hand on the handle, swinging it open.

"Finn? What are you doing here? its 11:55 at night." i said groggily, rubbing my eyes. he walked past me, "come on in." i muttered as i closed the door.

he paced, not meeting my eyes. he sat down and then stood back up again. i let this happen for a couple more minutes then i interrupted the anxious mood.

"finn. stop." he stopped and looked at me. "why are you here? especially now." i said looking at the clock that hung on the far wall of my living room.

"i need to tell you. it's killing me." he said looking at me seriously. his expression urgent and careful.

"what are you talking about finn? tell me what?" i said crossing my arms over my chest. i was so confused.

what was this about?

"i have wanted to tell you for so long. i wanted to tell you in a more special way, more special than this." he said gesturing around him.

"finn what are you talking about? this makes no sense. i-" i started. i couldn't understand what he was getting at until he interrupted me.

muttering those four words.

"i like you millie." he says, his back turned away from mine. my heart was pounding out of my chest, my mouth opened a gape.

"y-you what?"

he takes a deep breath, trying to muster up courage to let the words escape his mouth, "i like you." he turned around, facing me full frontal.

"i want you millie. i've wanted you for so long and i've wanted to tell you how i have felt about you." he tried explaining with open courage.

"but?" i motioned my hand for him to explain.

"but i can't have you."  he said. it caused my stomach to drop and my heart to break a little.

"what do you mean? why? i feel the same way. it shouldn't come as a shock to you." i say boldly. trying to keep in mind of who i was talking to in this exact moment.

"it doesn't. the way you flirt with me and the way you are always around me." he mutters to me, looking out the window of my small apartment. completely motionless.

"so you have always known?" i pushed, trying to understand the situation as much as possible.

"i had a feeling but i didn't know for sure. i couldn't take it anymore, it has been this way since we have graduated high school." he explained causing my heart rate to pick up.