Avenoir | Kim Yohan

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

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“This foolishly regret filled song, I hope it reaches the sky.”
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Kim Yohan

It's been a week since I found out about how Keira really felt about me and how I really felt for her. I know it's kinda off that I realized it just now but I guess that explains why I acted like that when it comes to her all throughout.

Eversince that day, Keira has been distant.. again. Well, I somehow understand her situation. Even I, can't face her courageously right now and to be honest I'm pissed at myself for realizing things as late as now.

That same night, I broke up with Hyewon. At first, she was hysterical about it and now, she's mad at me and I can't blame her. If only I realized things earlier, it wouldn't have turned out like this.

For now, I have made up my mind already. I'm going to try talking to Keira tonight. I hurriedly dressed up and started walking my way to Keira's house. I couldn't just let her avoid me forever. The situation is as complicated at it seems but I've been a coward for too long already and I'm not gonna let it spoil the moment this time.

I was looking at the ground, walking so I wasn't able to see that I'm about to bump into someone. When I looked at who bumped me, he was also looking down and wearing his hoodie so I guess he did not saw me too.

"Sorry." I know whose voice is that.

"I'm sorry too.."

"You went to Keira's house.. didn't you?" I asked him then he removed his hoodie which blocks the sight of his face.

"Uhm, yes. I dropped her home."

"Junho, thank you for taking care of Keira. I can't thank you enough. I am very thankful that you always keep her safe and okay at all times."

I mean it. He was there for Keira while I'm away. I owe him bigtime and I won't deny it.

"Hmm, yes. If you love someone, you should let them feel it. Make sure you show them how much you love them in all ways you can. And this is just one of my ways." He bravely said. Junho usually looks emotionless but this time, I can feel his sincerity.

"It's good to hear that. So I was just wondering, what's really the deal between you and Keira right now?" I asked.

Junho didn't gave me an answer for a while. He just stared at the surroundings as if thinking what to tell me next.

"Hello? Earth to Junho. I'm asking you."

"Well, we're good. We're actually really good. But for now, there is nothing really special going on between us. We are friends and that's clear for the both of us. But sooner, maybe I'll court her. I just want to make sure that everything is going fine for the mean time. I can't take to see Keira deal with the issues of her past while facing her present and future. I want her to be okay for now."

I completely understand what Junho is trying to say and I know that he is really serious about that. He really wants Keira to heal completely in all aspects of her life. I know that he will offer himself to be with her all the way and I just can't let that. If Keira managed to move on from me without me doing anything, I might just really regret it.

"So, you're just about to court her? I thought you two are already together." I said.

"Nope. She's still healing."

"Healing from me?" I said.

I didn't want to sound offensive but I just hate how he insist that he's gonna help Keira forget about me because I won't let that happen.