Avenoir | Kim Yohan

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

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“Even this loneliness that I’m feeling, are traces of you.”
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Kim Yohan

Once again, I took a glimpse at Keira and Junho when they started running again. Each step she takes away from me makes me want to pull her back to me. Her leaving, felt like my world leaving me too.

I can't take my eyes off of them especially seeing that Junho is holding Keira's hands while pulling her away. If only I had realized this feeling much earlier, thing wouldn't have been like this so I really can't stop blaming myself.

I let out a heavy sigh. Regrets are eating me up and I just want to cry so hard right now. Glances are all over me as I walk on the school grounds.

"Yohan! Yohan, talk to me!" Hearing that voice made me clenched my fist in anger, again.

"What now, Hyewon?"

"Are you seriously on Keira's side right now? I am you girlf--"

"--ex girlfriend, Hyewon. I can't believe that you're actually like this. I'm so disappointed."

"Yohan, stop! Do you really think Keira's all that innocent? She's trying to flirt with you and Junho at the same time!"

"And what made you say that, huh? You already talked shit about Keira a lot today and I'm getting sick of it. Why can't you just leave us alone?!"

The students still won't take their glancess off of me and Hyewon. I swear I don't like being the center of attention but Hyewon just attracts it in many ways.

"You see, Hyewon. I don't like all these attentions to be honest. I don't have time for your childish attitude. Besides, I trust Keira. I'll go ahead now."

"You'll regret making this decision, Yohan. I swear!"

"Do whatever you want to me, Hyewon. Just don't involve Keira. Don't involve your cousin."

I said as I continued walking away from her. She used to be the perfect girl I had in my mind but she was never like that in the first place.

This feeling is really unexplainable. So many random emotions are forced into one and to be honest, it's really stressing me out. I want to get mad at myself for realizing this now, I want to pull her away from Junho but at the same time, my mind just won't stop giving me this thought that maybe she's happier like that. Maybe she's happier when she's with him.

"Keira, as long as you're happy.." I whispered to myself.

I slowly made my way up to the university's rooftop. I don't even know why would I want to go to that place right now when infact, that place will just make me remember more of Keira and I's memories.

"Yohan!" I was taken aback when I heard someone called my name.

"Wooseok, what's up?" I saw Wooseok running hastily to where I am.

"Hmm, I witnessed that all. I was there the whole time." He whispered which made me laugh bitterly.

Wooseok freaking knows everything. Just as serious as he looks, he can also be that serious when keeping secrets. If you're looking for the perfect person you can share your secrets with, it has to be Kim Wooseok.

"You know, you should have told me before that Keira feels this way towards me!" I jokingly told Wooseok. Well, he was aware all this time yet he remained silent about it. Typical Wooseok.

"Should I apologize to you then? I just don't want to go one step ahead of Keira. It's still her decision anyways. To tell you honestly, I'm so sick of watching the both of you. One is blind and the other one is mute. Goodluck!"