not so Fake Love

Chapter 13

"I can sleep with whoever I want...as long as I can keep it a secret...so do you..."

"Damn it...", Shihyun curses under his breath. He can't sleep. Every time he tried to close his eyes, all he saw was Sooji's on the bed with Wooshik smirking beside her. And he couldn't do anything. Because he was so stupid saying some nonsense about sleeping with whoever they want. He wished he can go back in time and slapped himself in the face when he tried to say that.

Shihyun turns to his side. Looking at the sleeping girl beside him. She always said that she was afraid that everyone she likes will disappear, and he always tried to convince her that he won't. Assured her that he'll always be here, right next to her.

But one thing he never told her was, he's the one who was terrified to lose her. Every time he heard something bad happen to her, he feels his heart stop beating. He can't imagine his life without her in it. Does he love her? No. It can't be. He doesn't even believe that kind of thing exists. Like, might be. Or attracted. But not love. Love is such bullshit.

Shihyun sighs. Getting more confused with himself. How could he tell Sooji his feeling if he doesn't even understand what it is? But if he doesn't do something, he'll lose her. He can't afford to lose her.

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"You don't even need to drive me if you didn't have a class this morning...", Sooji says while Shihyun putting her cello on the back seat.

"I want to see Sejoo...", he lies. Not about Sejoo, but about not having class. He has a class this morning, but after tossing and turning all night, he only got an hour of sleep. He's really not in the mood to hear a lecture about investment and future value. "Come on...", Shihyun opens the car door for Sooji.

"Why would you meet Sejoo??"

"Nothing...since when I need a reason to hang out with Sejoo?"

"I am just curious...", Sooji rolls her eyes seeing how defensive Shihyun is. "By the way...I am going to be late tonight..."

"Why?"

"I need to practice for the competition...", she already told Shihyun about the music competition.

"with Wooshik...", Shihyun mumbles. He already knew she's going to practice with Wooshik. And it didn't make him feels less annoyed.

"Yeah..."

"I'll pick you up...", he states. Not even asking.

"No need...I can..."

"I said I'll pick you up.", Shihyun insists. Not accepting any argument.

Sooji glances at Shihyun, who's been looking at the street like he's looking at his mortal enemy. "Okay...I'll call you when I am finished practising...", she didn't want to argue with angry Shihyun.

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"What are you doing here??", Sejoo opens his apartment door sleepy and annoyed. But instead of answering, Shihyun just barges in ignoring Sejoo's question. "Yaaa!!!", Sejoo protests. After closing the door, he follows Shihyun inside.

Sejoo finds Shihyun on the couch with a can of cold beer. "Isn't this too early for a cold beer???", Sejoo sits beside Shihyun. But Shihyun still doesn't give any response. Sejoo almost falls asleep when Shihyun suddenly yelled.

"What the hell happened to me??!"

Sejoo opens his eyes, startled. "Yaaa!!!", he glares at Shihyun.

"Lee Sejoo...", Shihyun sulks. "Why am I being like this??"

"Like what?"

"Like I am going to explode every time I saw Sooji with that man...Uugh!!!", he squeezes the empty can.