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this is only a filler chapter so sorry it's short sksk
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~1 month later~
roger and i had been dating for around a month now and i was head over heels for him but my depression had started to come back. i didn't tell roger that, i didn't want to worry him.
it was quite late, around 12am. roger and i had spent the day out shopping so we were both rather tired. freddie, brian, john, delilah and jake had all been over earlier so the apartment was a complete mess, not that it was usually tidy with roger living here.
we were sat on the sofa watching this film, i don't think either of us were enjoying it, we just couldn't be bothered to turn it off. i rested my head on rogers chest and we curled up together underneath a blanket. he twirled my hair in his fingers, he knew i loved it when he did that. i must had fallen asleep as i woke up to roger hauling me up the stairs and plopping me on the bed. he jumped next to me and started kissing my cheek repeatedly. 'stopp' i giggled, 'never' he smirked.
roger went to get changed for bed and i just laid there. thoughts of my past still lingered in my mind. i would tell him, just not now.
i got under the heavy duvet and lay staring at the ceiling, trying not to doze off. my eyes were shut and i felt sleep filling my body. until roger leaped into bed next to me, making me jump a bit. i shuffled closer to roger and laid my head on his chest. 'what would i do without you?' he asked quietly. 'probably be living in a pile of mess with random girls everywhere' i replied honestly. 'oi' he laughed. he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me tighter towards him. and i felt myself doze off.
i had suddenly woke up after a horrible nightmare, it was about my past, about my family. it triggered some emotion and i started to freak out. i jumped up so i was sitting in bed and i was trying not to cry. i had obviously woken roger up and he leaped up to see if i was okay, 'love, what happened? are you okay?' he asked with fear in his tone. 'i-i'm fine, just had a nightmare, that's all' i replied, slightly shaking. being close to roger calmed me down a bit. i snuggled up to him, making me feel safer. 'it's okay love, i'm here' he said soothingly. i wrapped my arms around him and practically laid on top of him. he stroked my back up and down, calming me down. i entwined my hands in his hair and breathed in his scent of cologne and cigarette smoke. 'i love you' i said softly. 'i love you too' he replied. i really did love him more than anything. he had helped me so much, with the whole alex thing, whenever i needed somewhere to stay or someone to talk to, he'd always be there for me. i didn't know what i did to deserve him. our relationship was so healthy and strong, what could possibly interfere with it?
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i hope you enjoyed that small filler chapter, it was really bad agh sorry. i'm planning to add some more drama eek.
keep reading <3
~h
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