Inevitable

Doubts

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I tried to forget about what Liam said so I could finish my reading. Everyone was convinced that Henry was going to hurt me again. What if I really was being stupid? Would he say he loved me if he didn't really mean it? I don't think he would. That would just be cruel and Henry wasn't a cruel person. But what if he couldn't handle being in a serious relationship? I couldn't lose him. I couldn't go through all that again. It would be worse this time because we had slept together and we were in love. Maybe I should try to give him some space so he wouldn't get freaked out about having a girlfriend. I hated that I was overthinking this. And I was annoyed with Liam for putting these doubts in my head. I'm sure that was his goal when he said Henry would break my heart.
I realized I wasn't going to get anymore reading done so I put my books away and crawled under the covers. I couldn't turn my brain off though. I kept thinking about what it would do to me if I lost Henry. I thought I was over my trust issues with him but I guess I was wrong.
I must have tossed and turned for over an hour but I still didn't feel any closer to falling asleep. My phone started vibrating and it was Henry. A wave of relief washed over me.

"Hey, how was rehearsal?"

"Hey, it was okay. It would have been better if you had been there. I wasn't sure if you would still be up but I wanted to hear your voice."

"I can't sleep."

"What's wrong Em?"

I wasn't sure if I should tell him what was going on in my head. But if we were going to work, we needed to be honest with each other.

"Everyone thinks we aren't going to work out. I mean, I can see why they would think that. It's starting to get to me, I guess."

"Who's everyone? Did someone say something to you?"

O no! I didn't want to tell him who got in my head. But I wasn't going to lie either. I was probably going to regret it but I decided to be completely truthful.

"I talked to Liam tonight. He thinks you're going to break my heart. But he's not the only one. You know how Jess feels. And Jane is a little worried after everything that has happened but said she supports me no matter what."

"Fuck. Do you believe that? That I'm going to end up hurting you?"

"I know you love me and I know you are really trying to be better for me. But a small part of me is scared of losing you. And everyone else thinks that is exactly whats going to happen. I know I shouldn't care what other people think. But what if....this isn't enough for you?"

There was a long pause before Henry spoke.

"Can I come over?"

"What? It's late."

"I need to see you. I'm on my way."

He hung up. I couldn't believe he was coming here. I probably sounded so needy. I tried to call him back to tell him he didn't need to come over but he didn't answer. Fifteen minutes later he texted that he was downstairs. I went down and let him in. He was wearing sweatpants and a hooded sweatshirt. I don't think I had ever seen him wear anything other than jeans and a t shirt. As soon as he was through the door, he wrapped his arms around me. I relaxed against his chest. Just him holding me had made all of my doubts go away.

"How could you think this isn't enough for me? You are everything to me. And if anyone should be scared, it should be me. I'm afraid you are going to wake up one day and realize you are too good for me."

"What?! That's not true at all! More like the other way around."

He leaned away from me and held my face in his hands.

"I love you Emily. Please say you believe me."

"I believe you. I love you too. I'm sorry that I doubted it."

"Can I stay with you tonight? I like falling asleep next to you."

I can't believe I could ever doubt his feelings for me. I took his hand and we took the elevator back upstairs. When we got back in my room, Henry undressed and laid down on my bed. I slid in next to him and laid my head on his bare chest. He wrapped his arms around me and every insecurity I had been feeling just slipped away. I closed my eyes and fell asleep listening to Henry's heart beat.
My alarm went off at 7:30 since my first class was at 9. I was on my side with Henry behind me with his arm wrapped around my waist. I loved that he was always holding me, even in his sleep. I was tempted to stay in bed with him but I couldn't slack on my child psychology class since it was now my major. I carefully removed myself from his grip and surprisingly he stayed asleep. I gathered my things and crept out of the room to take a shower. When I returned, he was still asleep. I dropped my towel to get changed and at that very moment, Henry's eyes popped open.

"Now that's a great way to wake up. Come here."

"No."

He jumped up and crossed the room before I had time to pull my underwear on. He sure moved fast for someone who wasn't a morning person. Before I knew what was happening, he was kissing me and backing me up towards my bed. I was kidding myself if I thought I could resist him. And I did have a little extra time before I needed to leave.
When we got to my bed, I laid down and pulled him on top of me. He moved his mouth to my neck and the spot under my ear that I liked. His hand went in between my legs and he slipped a finger inside of me. I wrapped my legs around him. He reached down the floor and pulled a condom out of the pocket of his sweat pants. He rolled it on and hovered over me. I used my feet to push him down. I needed to feel him inside of me. He pushed inside of me and I buried my face in his neck so I wouldn't make too much noise. He started moving in and out and I lost myself in the way he was making me feel. It felt like he possessed me and I was glad to give him all of me.
He stopped and rolled us over without breaking contact so that I could be on top. Now it was my turn to possess him. I sat up and started rolling my hips slowly. I wanted to feel every inch of him going inside of me. He reached his hands up and kneaded both my breasts while I rode him. I wasn't going to last long like this. After a few minutes, I could feel the build up start inside of me. I exploded a minute later and so did Henry. I collapsed on him and my whole body felt like jelly. I couldn't move. The only thing I was aware of was Henry's heart racing underneath me.