Ocean Eyes

22

I still remember how things were back then
Everything was truly destroyed, molded, broken
The best thing someone could do was surviving
The worst,
Farewell to the life

I didn't accomplish anything remarkable or specific in my life
Everything went ordinary
I was a high school student with flaws and strength
The time I realised my mom had been carried by the giant wave
My life wasn't the same anymore

All I could feel was flaw, and pain

I asked
How could I live without someone that I love the most?
How could I live without the things I've had?
How could I live?
How?
The answer was,
Second chance

I was in the state of mind
Where breathing was the only think I could do
I thought,
Well, I've lost everything and they wouldn't come back
Why would I make an effort to maintain everything?

My life had been completely terminated
Why would I bother?

Fourty days later
And I have never been that alive
I guess my mom didn't leave me alone
She knew I was in need
She knew I needed help
She knew I was desperate

"Who the fuck—"
Was the first words my mom said to me after her death
The world could be more horrifying to me
But an angel came and cursed at me

I like my life better than ever since then

My mom was my first love
The second time,
I fell in love
Again

The tears I wasted every night slowly turned into something else
Happiness
Warmth
Affection
World
Like my birthday present

Everytime he looked me in the eyes
The universe started to revolve around us
As if I was stargazing through his eyes

I once hit myself because I thought I was stupid
But then,
He shared his bread

Mom, he even helped a woman during giving birth

So yeah, that guy is the one hundred eighty something tall
Someone that I really love
Choi Soobin

Thank you for letting me be a part of your life
And taste my second chance to live
I know my existence might not be that meaningful
But I'm glad
I truly am

This is Ningning
Someone who you call Huening Kai
Someone who kisses you everyday after school
Someone who hugs you every weekend
Someone who ceaselessly loves you

To my doctor Choi

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Seoul, eleven months after tsunami

Everything looked normal, there were no oddities or irregularities, just like usual days. The appearance of the house was still the same, the people around it were still the same, the oxygen inhaled was still the same, the time was still running normally. Everything still looked the same, no change. One thing that was certain, the world had not yet come to an end.

The only thing that looked different there is a slightly more quirky home decoration than usual. There are balloons, there are cakes, there are knick-knacks, there was music being played loosely and softly in the air. Such things would be seen at least four times a year. Before the tsunami shook, it was always five times.

Huening Kai came out of his room with messy hair, still wearing pajamas and his face still looked sleepy. He wondered what was going on inside his house, even though what really happened was not a problem, but a party.

"...Okay?" Heuning Kai still didn't understand how could his house change overnight. Last night before he went to bed, Huening Kai still remembered that his dining table was still empty and to serve it with various kinds of food certainly took a long time. In addition, the cake is also impossible to be made in one night, as well as all the decorations installed inside the house.