Molly's POV
It's pitch black outside when I manage to get myself up and moving. I have to go tell Chief Owens what happened. I swallow hard, choking back tears. I don't have the energy to cry anymore right now. I silently make my way down the street towards Felix's apartment.
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I stand outside of the apartment, my stomach flipping. I just knocked. God, how can I do this? The door flies open.
"Felix do you have any id-" Chief Owens cuts herself off immediately after spotting me. She takes one look at my face and nods as tears start running down her face, "Oh."
"I'm so, so sorry," I choke out, "I didn't think- He was supposed to be safe. I went into the building Tremor was in. Tremor knew and went after the one he was in because Felix was a threat to him. I should've just listened to you. I never should've even admitted-"
"No baby," she cuts me off, "It's not your fault. Felix was old enough to make his own decisions. Like you said, he was gonna help you whether I wanted him to or not. He's his father's son."
"I shouldn't have let him help," I sob, miserable, "If I could, I'd go back and save him."
"But you can't, sweetie," she reminds me, wiping tears from her eyes, "We can't live in the past. My husband's death taught me that. Please Psyche, please. Don't let this break you. I'm not mad at you." I turn and leave, unable to look at her anymore. I go into the staircase and out through an open window, onto a fire escape. I climb down and wander through the city, looking for a place to cry for a little while more.
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As I close the door to the apartment, the lights cut on. I jump, startled.
"Where the fuck have you been? It's almost three in the morning. You said you'd text an- Molly? What happened? What's wrong?" Luke sees my tear stained face and switches from angry to worried. As I stare at him, I realize that this is exactly how Chief Owens reacted when she thought I was Felix. I break down sobbing again. Luke rushes forward and pulls me into his arms. We sink down onto the couch. I lean against my older brother, crying into his chest. Luke just holds me close, rubbing my back and whispering that everything will be alright. But he doesn't know. He didn't see Chief Owen's face when I told her Felix was gone. He didn't watch helplessly as Tremor blew up the building with Felix in it. He didn't know Felix. I start crying harder.
"What's wrong Molly?" Luke asks, "I can help you if you just tell me." I shake my head no. He sighs and kisses the top of my head. "Okay. I'm here though. If you change your mind and want to talk." I cling to him tighter. Eventually I feel myself drifting off to sleep, exhausted from all of the crying and shit I've gone through today. Luke is still holding me and rubbing my back. I close my eyes and allow myself to fall asleep.
